사랑 참 어렵다 (Love is hard)

Chapter Fourteen.

[ Dohee pov ]

Why him?

Of all people?

I didn't want anyone to run after me but if anyone were to...it wouldn't or more, it shouldn't be him.

So why Kris?

"Kris please. You don't even know me. Just leave me alone." I say as I sigh turning around walking away from him.

I hear footsteps follow behind me, which causes me to sigh, a little frustrated this time.
Like who does he think he is? He doesn't even know me! Get lost!

I spin around to tell him exactly that and as I do, I feel arms wrap around me and pull me into his embrace.

"Uh?" I say, my voice muffled by his chest.

What is happening? My eyes blink a couple of times due to confusion. I try to move my arms, but his tight grip has me secured. I move my head to look up at him, to see him staring down at me.
Ok, bad move.

"Kris plea-" I try to plea before he cuts me off. I can feel hurt in his voice as he speaks.

What?........

"Look Dohee. I don't exactly know either ok? So please just let me do this. Maybe after this.....I won't......it'll go away..." he says softly a little lost for words.

I take a deep breath to calm myself down. So we're both confused? What does he mean it'll go away? Too tired and exhausted with myself I pat him on the back. "Ok. Just please...can you let me go now?"

He nods and lets of me and I take a step back, a little bit embarassed. We stand there in silence, not knowing what to say.

"Thanks Kris" I finally say "You didn't have to run after me."

"I wanted to." He says still looking at me.

I kinda felt uncomfortable from all the attention he was giving me.  I felt like I couldn't be still on the spot. So I try to distract myself with random thoughts while looking around the area.

"Do you want to head back?" He says snapping me out of my distraction failed attempt.

I shake my head and tuck a loose strand of hair behind my ear "I kinda just want some fresh air. You can go back. "

He nods while shoving his hands in his pockets.

As I stand there, I look up at him as he is looking away. I study his features. His face, the way the moonlight shone on his hair. His aura, the powerful gripping force I felt everytime he looked at me. Confused a little I question myself.

Why me?

Why did I have to be mesmerised? Love at first sight doesn't exist! And this isn't even love!

A little bit more frustrated with myself, I shake the thoughts away and take a seat near the tree and lean back on it.

Kris does the same.

Does this boy not understand my dilema? He is the reason for all of this? And I'm not going to just openly say, 'hey you make me feel uncomfortable but in a like like kinda way'
I pull my knees to my chest and just lean my head on them not knowing what to do.

"Look Dohee. Why dont we just start off as friends?" Kris says in a soft voice.

I lift my head up to look at him, thoughts racing through my mind. Scared due to not knowing what the future will hold.

We are looking at each other, face to face. I study his sincere face to see if there was anything else he wanted from me, but I could tell he was genuine.
I smile softly and hold out my hands towards him.