사랑 참 어렵다 (Love is hard)

Chapter Twenty-five

Kai's POV

I have never hated being an idol so much. This is absolutely infuriating. I just wanna date who I wanna date, be with who I want to be with, and not have every second monitored. It's not that I don't love Exo and being a part of Exo. I absolutely do. But that doesn't mean that I always like everything that comes with it. I was trying to take my anger out in my debate class but it was becoming really hard to focus. My arguments were flawed and made no sense. I just need to see her. See her smile...hear her laugh...I need to know that she's ok. Finally class ended and I dashed out, hoping to see Heesoo on her way to her cooking class. How is that going to work with Lay? They're partners. Oh, please say they won't split them up. Please. I rounded the corner and caught sight of Heesoo at the end of the hall. As if she knew I'd be here she looked up, her eyes connecting with mine. Her mouth dropped in shock as she lifted her hand to wave. Before I could respond my security guard, Yijung, pulled me away. I glanced back and saw Heesoo's shoulders sag in defeat as she hid her face with her hair. No. Please. I can't stand to see her upset like this.

"Mwoya!?" I exclaimed angrily as I pulled my arm out of his grasp and stalked off.

"You know the rules," Yijung frowned.

"I know but..." I paused, "She's the love of my life ok?!"

"Love of your life?" Yijung scoffed, "You've known her for two weeks. Trust me, after midterms you won't think twice about this girl. Not that you should. She's not worth your time, you could do so much better."

"Shut up," I growled, "You don't know anything. You don't know Heesoo."

"Whatever," Yijung rolled his eyes, "Just go to class and stop throwing tantrums."

Heesoo's POV

My jaw dropped in shock as I saw Kai standing at the end of the hall, breathing hard. I started to wave but he was pulled away by his bodyguard before anything else could happen. I felt tears well up in my eyes and I covered my face with my hair. This isn't fair! We've done nothing wrong! And who is the person giving this information? Who has something against Kai and I? I stopped dead in my tracks as I came to a realization. Tiffany. Tiffany wants to break us up. She's made that perfectly clear in the past. OH when I get ahold of her...she is so dead. I walked into my cooking class, fuming with anger. I was so distracted I didn't notice Lay next to me until he spoke.

"Annyeong," He said softly, a small smile on his face.

"Oh...annyeong," I replied slowly. Nothing more was said, due to the bodyguard, glued to Lay's side I assumed. We spent the class only talking about the recipe, the atmosphere very awkward, as if we were both holding back. Which, let's be honest, we both were. There was so much I wish I could say to Lay...things to say to him...things to pass on to Kai and the rest of the boys.

"Well...uh...bye oppa," I gave a short wave before turning and walking out the door. I walked back to my dorm and sat at my desk. Time to work on that letter to Kai. Dohee would be giving it to Kris tomorrow morning. I pulled out my stationary and a sparkly purple pen and began writing.

Dear Jongin oppa~~

Annyeong annyeong!? Miss me? Oh...maybe that's a bad joke...mian...anyways...today was...well I don't wanna sit here and write a letter that is just complaints but man life is crap right now. ㅠㅠ It's weird being in classes and not being able to talk to anyone. And I swear my heart broke when I saw you in the hallway today....ok I'll stop being lame and depressing now. It's affecting my music...and that's a serious problem. Anyways...I realized something today...other than the fact that you're my favorite person ever...but I already knew that...^^ anyways...sorry I can't focus...mian...so I was thinking, who would want us to break up? And I realized...ready for this??? *drumroll* IT WAS TIFFANY AHJUMA! Is that rude to call her that? Hmm I don't care...she's old and I don't like her. She broke us up. Not cool. Oh my gosh...you know what I just realized? YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO STAAARRRVVVEEEEEE???? Who is going to feed you over the next two weeks? Oh dear...maybe I should make extra food in the community kitchen and send it with Dohee...I mean...I guess Yixing oppa could always cook as well....hmmm just tell Dohee if you guys need food. We'll be sure to get some to you. ^^ #bestgirlfriendever Oh man...I don't have much else to say...well I do...but...I dunno...doesn't seem like the time to babble endlessly as I normally do. Wow...your life is going to be so quiet these next two weeks...mian that was probably a bad joke too...I should work on that....anyways I'm going to take a nap...because I literally have nothing better to do with my life...I need a puppy...don't actually get me a puppy...I have nowhere to put it...maybe I'll go to a shelter and pet puppies....that would be fun.....but for now I'm going to take a nap. I'm tired. So I'm going to end this letter...of complete random nonsense...DON'T DUMP ME BECAUSE OF THIS!!! Yet another bad joke...I should stop being so heartless....yeah...I don't do well with heartbreak...mian...ANYWAYS! Annyeong~~~~~~~~~

Your favorite person ever,

Heesoo

I considered writing love but...well we haven't said that to each other yet. And I dunno...I know I'm falling for him, but is it love yet? Maybe I'm just too scared to admit it...because I'm afraid to get hurt again. I just...I don't wanna get too attached...not yet. If we can get through these two weeks then...maybe then...we'll be ready to say the 'L' word.

I folded up the letter and put it in an envelope, leaving it on my desk before climbing into bed. I wasn't kidding about taking a nap. All this heartbreak is making me exhausted. I curled up under my blankets and fell asleep quickly, dreaming of Kai. I woke up to a dark room, save for the bedside lamp and Dohee shaking me.

"Heesooah!" She called, "Wake up."

"Hmm?" I groaned slightly, sitting up, "What time is it?"

"It's 9:30," Dohee replied, "I just got back from studying with Namjoon. How long have you been asleep? Did you go to classes today?"

"Yes Dohee I went to classes," I laughed tiredly, "I dunno...I've probably been sleeping since...like 5?"

"4 AND A HALF HOURS! HEESOOAH!" Dohee reprimanded, "How are you going to sleep tonight?"

"I'll be fine," I grumbled, flopping back down.

"Are you going to be like this the whole two weeks?" Dohee rose an eyebrow at me.

"I dunno," I shrugged, "I'm just tired ok?"

"Ok, ok, fine," Dohee raised her hands in defeat, "Did you write the letter for Kai?"

"Yeah it's on my desk," I replied, "Are you going to see Kris oppa in the morning?"

"Yup," Dohee nodded, trying to keep a smile from forming on her face.

"Ooo," I teased, "A little excited are we?"

"Shut up," Dohee groaned, sitting on her bed and hiding her face in her pillow.

"Make sure you dress cute tomorrow," I sang happily.

"Heesooah!" Dohee threw her pillow at me in annoyance.

"What? If I can't have a love life I might as well live vicariously through my roommate and make sure she has one," I snickered, "Ooo that's probably not a good joke to make. I really need to stop with break up jokes."

"You've been making break up jokes?" Dohee questioned.

"The letter I wrote to Jongin oppa is full of them," I told her, "I don't do it on purpose...I think it's like a defense mechanism...like if I joke about this then it won't hurt as much you know?"

"Yeah I know what you mean," Dohee nodded, "I know exactly what you mean."

"So, in other news, I'm pretty sure Tiffany ahjuma is the one that gave the information," I said.

"Ahjuma?" Dohee laughed, "That's a good one...I like it. And hmm...I could see that. I mean...ever since she stole your song it's been obvious she wants to break the two of you up."

"Right?" I nodded, "That's what I was thinking. So, how are we going to exact our revenge? Cause there is absolutely no way I'm letting an ahjuma get away with trying to ruin my life."

"Hmm...good question," Dohee began to ponder.

"Please tell me you have some ideas," I prodded, "You know...what with the whole gang thing you were telling me about...is that insensitive to bring that up? I feel like I kinda just turned off my filter in general when it comes to appropriate things to say. But anyways...I guess my point is, I'm sure you've wanted to get revenge on someone before...and like...I'm not one that's like yeah let's delve into your past and repeat history but...oh man that's exactly what I'm asking you to do. Ok I take back everything I just said. Let's pretend none of this rambling ever happened. And as for revenge...well...I may have a few ideas."

"Oh?" Dohee rose an eyebrow.

"One problem," I bit my lip, "In order to enact this revenge...I'd need to hack into that ahjuma's computer...and that's kinda illegal, not that I'm against that per se, but you know..."

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Taya here! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! Sorry it's kinda short....I'll write a longer chapter next time...until then...시랑해! ❤❤❤