사랑 참 어렵다 (Love is hard)

Chapter Forty-Nine

Heesoo's POV

"Thanks for always putting up with me," I looked at Kai, who was sitting on the deck chair next to mine. We had been sitting on the balcony in silence for a while now, just enjoying the night air, and processing everything that had been said.

"Babe," Kai gave me a look, "I don't think of it that way."

"But like, you are," I pointed out, "I mean, I'm a mess. And like I thought I had it together, but I clearly don't."

"Nobody has it together," Kai smiled softly, "Everyone is a mess."

"You're supposed to say that," I rolled my eyes jokingly.

"All the same, it's true," Kai shrugged.

"And all the same, gomawo," I smiled softly, "I know I'm a lot to handle."

"But you're worth it," Kai stood up and leaned down to kiss my forehead, "You always will be."

"Saranghae," I murmured, as Kai pulled me my feet.

"Meeya more," Kai tapped my nose, a wide grin stretching across his face, "Now let's get you home. You look like you need a good night's sleep."

"Yes please," I chuckled, sliding my hand into Kai's. We walked inside and I waved goodbye to everyone before we made our way to my dorm. The walk was quiet, neither one of us needing to say anything. I'm just so glad Kai is so accepting of me, and who I am and everything I've been through. And the fact that he's stuck around through all of my psycho is mind-blowing to me. I don't deserve someone like him. He is way too good for me.

"What are you thinking about?" Kai looked at me.

"Just how grateful I am for you," I smiled up at him, "You're too good for me."

"Jagi," Kai pulled me to a stop, "You don't really believe that do you?"

"Why wouldn't I?" I started to explain, "Oppa, you've been nothing but amazing through this all. I mean, you've been so supportive and accepting, and you've loved me despite everything. And I'm sure it hasn't been easy. I'm not the easiest person to love. I know that. I'm loud, and obnoxious, and dramatic an-"

"Okay, I'm going to stop you there," Kai grabbed my other hand and faced me, "First of all, you are the easiest person I've ever met to love. Loving you is as easy as breathing. I would have to actually stop breathing to stop loving you. Actually, wait, I'm pretty sure I'd still love you from beyond the grave."

"Oppa," I laughed.

"I'm not done," Kai held a hand up, before stroking my face gently, "Heesooah, you are none of those things you just said. You are kind, you are independent, you are beautiful, smart, loving, full of life, caring, talented, charismatic, and I-I don't even think there are enough words to describe all the things I think about you. Heesoo, you are incredible, and I don't want you to think for a second, that you aren't. I'm not the one who is too good for you. You are way too good for me. I am the luckiest person alive."

"Hmm, you know," I pursed my lips, "This might be our biggest fight. Because I disagree. I think I'm the luckiest person alive."

"You'll never win that fight," Kai winked before leaning down to kiss me.

"Game. On," I flipped my hair as I spun and walked off towards my dorm.

"You're kinda cute when you get feisty," Kai caught up with me.

"Psh, I'm always cute," I laughed.

"Now that I can agree with," Kai threw an arm around my shoulders. We finally made it to my dorm and Kai left me with a kiss before walking off. I opened the door into the dorm and found Dohee sitting on her bed.