사랑 참 어렵다 (Love is hard)

Chapter Forty Six.

[ Dohee ]

"Namjoon I'm tired" I lay my head back down on his shoulder as he continues to give me a piggy back through the school campus. That car ride was tiring and uncomfortable. "You wanna sleep in my dorm or do you want me to take you to yours?" He says as he jumps up making me bump my head on his. "NAMJOON!" I yell as I rub my forehead. "Do you have food at your place?" I ask as he walks into his dorm building. He chuckles "You would." He says as we reach his door.

"Yo yo good to see you!" Namjoon yells as we enter the dorm. Most of the gang was there. I peep my head up and smile as Namjoon continues towards the couch "How were your holidays?"  I ask just before Namjoon sits down on me. I squirm and try to free myself but just end up laying flat on the couch with Namjoon over me.

Everyone chuckles as they reply with good and relaxing. I sigh as I give up. Stupid Namjoon. "How about yours?" Luhan asks as he sits down patting my head.

"It was pretty good to be honest." I say with a smile as I look up over at Namjoon. "Ya! My body is going numb! Get off me!" Namjoon just chuckles as he rolls off me pulling me up with him. "We spent it eating good food and sharing memories of the people that we cared about who passed. This holiday is always good." Namjoon says as he smiles down at me. I nod in agreement. I wasn't able to show my grandparents how grateful I was for them back then so this year was extra special, cause I was all there. Not just physically but mentally.

[ flash back ]

"Oh! Look how precious you look!" My grandma squealed as I walked down the stairs. She had left a dress out on my bed for me to wear which was a deep wine red. It stopped at the knees and the dress looked too formal for me but I wanted to wear it for my grandma.
"She looks just like her mother" my grandpa said as he wiped a tear from my grandmas eyes. I smile softly as I run up to them and give them both a hug.

"I love you both so much." I smile up at them and they both give me another tight squeeze. "If only you came to your senses sooner we could have had chuseoks like this all the time." She says jokingly as she punches my cheek. I chuckle softly as I rub my cheek "Mian." I say softly. My grandpa waves his hand in the air to ignore what my grandma says as he pulls us both into the next room.

Woobin oppa and Namjoon were in there already sitting around the table. Namjoon looks me up and down before covering his mouth trying to hold in his laughter. Grandma walks past him and hits him on the head. "She looks beautiful." She says as she smiles at me taking her seat. I poke out my tongue at Namjoon as I sit down next to him and chuckle. Serves him right!

We spent the holiday eat lots of food, taking a lot of photos but most of our time was used looking through old photo albums and our precious memories of my parents as well as Namjoons mum.
Our mothers were best friends and I didn't know that until today. I snuggle next to Namjoon as we listen to stories of our mothers being pranksters! My grandfather laughs to himself as he tells us of how he found my mother dangling from her bedroom window because she tried to sneak out with Namjoons mum.

I smiled to myself as I looked around the room at the people that I hold dear. I then feel a little guilty as I remember what harlmoni said.....if only I was like this sooner......I must have been such a burden. I was never here during chuseok....I refused to be here so I went around causing trouble with my gang.

"You ok?" Woobin asks me as he pokes my cheek. I smile up at him giving him a nod. "Mhm." He smiles and pats my hand.

I'm never gonna let go of having more precious moments like this.

[ present ]

"Ya....I think she's possessed." Sehun says as he waves a hand in front of my face. I blink a few times before coming back to reality. I laugh really loud before patting Sehuns cheeks "sorry I was just reminiscing about chuseok." Sehun shakes his face free from my hands and scoffs "already?!" He smiles as he looks back at me "good. I thought for a second that you were having traumatic episodes or some-" Suho punches him on the arm "shut up Sehun you pabo"

Everyone laughs as Sehun pouts and chucks a cushion over at him. I look around the room and check my phone. No new messages. Hmmm. I got a few messages during the holidays from Heesoo but I didn't get any from Kris.

"We don't know where Kris is either." Luhan says as he reads my actions. I chuckle softly as I put my phone away giving him a nod. "Don't worry. During chuseok he doesn't message any of us, so he's not doing anything on purpose." He continues to say. I smile up at him and nod feeling a little reassured.

I didn't invite him over for chuseok because we never talked about it. It never crossed my mind till I was at home and Woobin told us that Minah wouldn't be making it to this years holidays. I hope he's having a good time with his family though. He flew back to America so I guess it would have been impossible for him to come over plus he should spend time with his family.

"When does everyone else come back? Anyone know?" I ask as I look around. Everyone shakes their head and I nod with a smile.

"We'll see them soon enough." I say as I lay my head back on the couch. "I'm gonna take a quick nap ok? Lay do you think you can make me something savoury to eat when I wake up? I'm actually starving but I'll eat after my nap." Lay smiles and nods as he jumps up excitingly "I'm only cooking for Dohee" he says giving the guys a death stare before walking off to the kitchen. I chuckle to myself before cuddling up to Namjoons side "wake me up though if someone messages me on my phone." He nods and I smile as I let the warmth from the room cover and pull me into my dreams.

A/N
- asela ♡