KHIP-HOP Mini Series

Jaewon 04

- I guess I'm attracted to someone I can't have... -

"He's out there again." One of my coworkers tells me. 

I shrug it off trying my best to play it off like it doesn't hurt. 

"You ain't gonna talk with him, hun?" Mary asks me. 

I offer her a bright smile. "I'm fine." I tell her. 

She frowns. "You don't have to pretend with us hun, if a guy like him hurt me I'd be bawling my eyes out or kicking his ass." Mary tells me with a smile, which kind of freaks me out because she's an elderly lady with gray hair and looks like a sweet old thing but sometimes her words catch us all off guard. 

"You should talk to him." Another of my coworker pitches in.

"I can't." I tell them, "I made up my mind." 

I move from my spot and head off to another section to assemble in a different aisle. 

-

Once works over everyone starts heading out but I stay back with a few of my other coworkers so I won't walk out alone, but as soon as I step out the company I spot him leaning against his ride, he catches my eyes. 

I look away immediately and pretend I hadn't seen him at all. 

"Annie!" He calls after me, I pick up the pace and start to head off elsewhere but soon he's caught up. He doesn't try to touch me, instead he repeats my name over and over and I feel like it's gonna drive me insane. 

I stop. 

He walks around me until he's standing in front of me. "Annie, mianhae." 

I keep my eyes glued to the ground. "Jebal, look at me." 

I shake my head, no. 

"Why? I'm here aren't I? Please, Annie your gonna make me insane." 

I scoff. "At least here you know who I am." I snap. 

I start to walk past him again but this time he wraps his arms around me from behind, nuzzling his face in between my neck and shoulder. "You need to understand me Annie." He places a kiss on my neck. "If I told them that your my girl...my career would be a bit difficult." 

I suddenly grow even angrier. "Then let me make it easy for you." I smack his hands away from me and turn to face him. I try to stay as pissed off as I can while looking at him but dam why did he have to be so beautiful? It made it almost impossible to stay angry at him and the more he looked at me the less confident in my anger I felt. "Let's break up." 

He grins, "You're a bad liar." He tells me, he reaches for me again hooking his fingers in the loops of my jeans. "You love me Annie." 

I swallow, looking away. "No." 

"You don't love me?" He asks. 

I shake my head. "No, I don't." 

"I love you." My heart races and suddenly my eyes water. Jaewon suddenly stopped smiling and was reaching for me, his hands cupping either side of my cheeks. He was kissing the tears away but I couldn't help myself. I smacked him on the chest a few times until I was clutching fist fulls of his shirt burying my face in his chest. 

"I don't want to be your secret." I tell him, "I want to be like all those other couples." I tell him. "I want to be with you all the time." I continue. 

"Hey," He pulls me from him. "You can and you will." 

I shake my head, "Your the bad liar." 

He looks at me confused. "You know that at the rate we're going I'm never gonna see you again...once you debut with YG I'll never see you again." 

His hold on my loosens, he stares at me in shock, there's a moment of silence before he starts to protest the idea. "Never, I would never... Annie I..." He stutters. 

"But it's gonna be okay... it's okay if you end up breaking my heart...as long as it's you. I'll be fine with that." I don't think Jaewon had ever heard those words, or had expected to hear them but that night changed us, changed everything and suddenly Jaewon was looking at me like I was the one thing he wasn't willing to lose. 

"Never." He utters, "I won't break the heart I love." He starts kissing me deeply, pausing in between breaths to tell me over and over how much he loves me, and I wrapped my arms around him wishing it could be like this everyday. 

"I love you. I love you. I love you." He tells me over and over as he kisses me.

He rests his forehead against my own, tugging at our hands, he pulls away and walks us back to his car. He opens up the door for me and I sit inside waiting for him to enter the other side and once he does he offers me a grin. "I want to give you all the nice things in the world." 

I laugh. "You'd go broke." 

He shrugs, "Anything for my girl." 

I bit my lip and blushed, he smiles at my reaction and puts the car in drive. "I'll take you somewhere nice." He murmurs. 

He drives down the street and as he does I hadn't imagined that the nice place he was talking about was his place. But once we got there and he turned the car off, I stepped out into the cold and took his hand as he led me up the steps and into a small little house. He barely closed the door when he pulled me into his arms, "Annie stay here." 

"Eh?" I was blushing like a fool avoiding his eyes. 

"Stay with me." He suddenly links our hands together. "I want to give you a reason to stay." That's when he throws his shirt over his head and onto the floor, he's only in his pants and his abs are exposed. 

I turn away but he won't let me, instead he grabs my hands and forces me to graze the skin of his hard abs. 

As my fingers trace the lines in his abs, a moment goes by and I swear I feel him tense beneath me, causing my fingers to freeze and my breath to catch. Terrified that he's going to do something I'm not prepared for,  I'm holding it in, my fingers still lightly touching him but no longer moving. A moment passes, and then another. Relief flows through me when he doesn't do anything other than look at me with raw passion. 

My heart is still racing, and I don't know if it's from the sudden high I feel or if it's from the close proximity to him. I'm completely confused at my reaction to him. "What do you want to do right now?" He asks me, out of breath. 

Mindlessly speaking I say. "You." It's only once I've said that I  realized what I said. I grow silent, cold, and rigid. 

He smirks. "I knew you'd be like this." 

I was about to protest but he shuts me up by kissing me on the mouth. And as he kisses me I think about how this might just be the closest to a dream coming true as it gets. 

"Are you scared?" He pauses in between the kiss.

I now, slowly. "I'll take it slow."  He whispers before diving back into kissing me.

-to be continued-