KHIP-HOP Mini Series

Jaewon 02

"If somebody loves me I'm satisfied with that."

My heart flutters whenever he's near, when he holds my hand I feel my cheeks blush, and when he kisses me on the lips I feel a little more of me fall for just a little more of him. It was an endless cycle of pure blissful love. 

I was shocked by how such a beautiful being could come to like someone as plain as me. I found myself discovering that love and being in love could as well be something I'd enjoy for the rest of my life if Jaewon was the one on the other end of it. 

"I love your smile." I whispered against his chest as he held me. 

We were supposed to be watching the movie on TV but I just couldn't help myself. I wanted to know that he was real, that this was really happening to me right now. 

He squeezes my hand and places a kiss on the crown of my head. "I love you." He said simply. 

My breathing comes to a sudden halt, what did he just say? But instead of repeating himself he pulls away from me and forced me to look at him. "You'll wait for me, won't you?" 

I scrunch my face in confusion. "When I become famous. You'll wait for me right?" His eyes twinkle against the sunlight as I reach for his lips, before the word yes slips from my own his own mouth is covering mine. 

-

I was preoccupied the next few days with work since I worked five days a week from 6 in the morning to 6 at night. I hardly had time to meet up with Jaewon and honestly my body was too tired to be able to. 

I craved his touch but in his absence I found myself mutually understanding what it meant to be loved by someone. I understood what his dream meant to him which was why I stood by his side, no matter what I'd be the pillar to support him. He'd always have a place for him to fall back to because I'd be on the other side, to pick him up. 

"So a singer huh?" My coworker asks. 

"Rapper." I correct and continue to place the connector onto the LED. She laughs, of course it was expected of her no one really believed he could achieve his dream but then again I never imagined he'd want to be with me which gave me all the more hope to support him because it's what he needed now. 

"So when will he be back?" Her question startles me, pulling me from my thoughts. I look back up at her seeing as her curiosity perked up. 

"Soon." I assure her. 

She rolls her eyes at my answer. "Well I'd be careful if I were you that boy looks like trouble, hell a heart breaker trust me I know that look in his eyes."

"What look?" I furrow my brows in confusion, she was crazy. 

"You know the look, like umm, like he's use you like a tool. Trust me I know, it's how I put a roof over my head everyday." She smirks. 

"He's never asked for money much less a place to sleep." I snap. 

She chuckled, shaking her head. "And who said it was luxuries he wants? That boy is fine, and a boy like him doesn't do the whole love thing unless you count the whole night scene, you'll see soon he'll show his true colors." 

I sigh and wave her off, I swear my coworkers were an omen, they were nothing but old hags with nothing to do. 

-

After work on Friday I face timed Jaewon who was overseas again. "Guess what." He said. I smile at him while waiting for whatever news he has to reveal. "I'm finally gonna make it big." He sounds hyped. "YG is letting me out the dungeon." 

I swallow the lump in my throat. "I'm happy." I smile. 

"Okay but hear me out I know you won't like this but-" I know whatever it is he has to say is going to affect our relationship one way or the other especially when I start hearing stuff like dates and appearances and how it's all going to be faked but even as I smiled and nodded I knew that this wasn't bound to be good because with a smile like his he'd make any girl weak to her knees even if it was all a publicity stunt.