KHIP-HOP Mini Series

Gray 05

"I'm telling you this party will be amazing." One of my girlfriends boasts as she reapplies another coat of mascara. 

I take a look at myself in the mirror too. Today was supposed to be my first month anniversary with John. I was looking forward to it because tonight was supposed to be the night we made love. He didn't want to pressure me into it of course I just thought that maybe it was finally time we took it up a notch. 

I fixed my dress as best I could and then after all my other friends were ready we headed to the Uber that was going to be taken us to the party in Korea town. 

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It was a busy street, the house itself look like it couldn't hold in all the people that were inside partying it up. "The guys said they're by the pool." I tell my friends. 

We walk into the house and I can already smell the booze, sweat, and mix of cigarettes that loom in the air. I didn't pay much attention to our surroundings but rather making sure I didn't get separated from the girls. 

After a while we finally made it to the back which wasn't that bad, it was more mellowed down but still as lively with the almost naked girls swimming in the pool. "Lisa!" I turn my head and spot John by the snack section with the rest of the other guys. 

"John." He runs up to me, pulling me into his arms and giving me a sweet kiss. 

I smile at him and he throws an arm over my shoulder while he greets everyone else. "I'm glad you guys were enjoying yourselves." Mindy says with a roll of her eyes. 

Her boyfriend makes a point of publicly displaying his affection to us and the onlookers who clearly have an eyeful. "So did you want to dance?'' John whispers in my ear. 

His hot breath on my neck tickles me that I smack him on the chest. "You can't even walk in there." I tell him. 

He smirks. "Come on." John takes me by the hand and starts to drag me back in to where it was we came in from. By the time we find some decent space in the mix of everyone else all I feel is friction of skin against skin, it makes me really uncomfortable and John seems to notice my discomfort that he offers to go look for another spot. "I'll be right back, don't move." He urges. 

Before I can protest the idea he'd already gone into the group of girls grinding against each other. 

Sighing I press myself against the wall while the flashing of strobe lights and heavy beat of hip hop continues to play on in repeat. My eyes wander over the crowd of party goers who are oblivious to anything around them. 

I find myself starring at some guys back, oddly looking very familiar to me. He ends up turning to the side as he talks with some other guy and it took me a few moments to realize who it was that I was starring at. 

"Gray." I whisper. 

I push myself off the wall and stare at him wide eyed, he hasn't noticed me yet which is a good thing. I can't let him see me, much less talk to me, sure my feelings for him aren't as strong anymore but I never really confronted the pain of being in love with him, instead I had it locked away and stored somewhere deep in my heart to never be open again. 

But instead as I starred at him I started to get flashes of us together, those memories were enough to make the pain in my chest resurface. I place a hand on my chest as I take in how good he looks, but that ends up being a mistake because he finally turns his head to the crowd skimming his eyes over the girls until finally...our eyes lock. 

I immediately look away and instead push myself into the group of dancing bodies and start to head towards the back.  I wanted to meet up with the others and tell them some lame excuse about not feeling well to go home.