Sophia Mendes-Secrets

Shaking

I finally got enough strength to get up and move. I painfully limped all the way back to the parking lot the bus was parked in. I look at my phone and it says 2:56am. I slowly climb the stairs to the door and open it slowly. I quietly slip in and close the door. I pass the empty bunks and don't know why they're empty, but I don't care. I grab pajamas. The are grey sweatpants and navy blue sweatshirt. I go straight to the bathroom and lock the door. I manage to get my skirt off easily, but the top was a pain. It hurt too much for my bra and panties so I'm gonna kept them on. I start the shower and put it on the hottest setting. The hot water soothed my muscles enough to let me slip off my bra and panties. I throw them in the trash never wanting to see them again. I scrub my body and wash my hair for what felt like eternity, yet I still felt the dirt and that guy on my skin and in my hair. I step out of the shower and turn it off. I quickly dry myself while my muscles are relaxed a bit. I look in the mirror and see bruises, cuts, and scrapes all over my body. I put on a sports bra and panties and then my pajamas quickly. I let tears of physical, emotional, and mental pain slip out. I manage to pull it together and wipes the tears away and wash away any evidence that I was crying. I put my damp hair into a messy bun and take a breath. I make sure my clothes are in the trash, never to be seen again. I cover then in tissues so the boys won't notice. I unlock the door and step out. It is dark and then the light flips on. I turn around grabbing onto a bunk, tightly.

"It is 4am. You got home at 2:56am. You didn't call or anything, Sophia! We stayed up worried sick about you. You didn't come to tell us you are okay, you just got a shower! And you know the rules, you shouldn't be wearing those!" Shawn yells angry and all the boys are behind him.

I just stood there my hands shaking. I don't know how to respond or even if I can respond.

"You know what we're tired, we'll deal with you in the morning." he says angrily.

The boys all head to their bunks, and I look over and I was holding onto my bunk. I am about to climb in when someone stops me. I turn around and Cameron is there. All the others are in their bunks practically asleep because they were so tired.

"Your hands are shaking." He whispers.

I look at my hands and they were still shaking.

"Sophia, this isn't normal, this isn't you." He says holding my hands still.

"Look at me, Sophia." He whispers but I keep looking at the ground.

He lets go of my hands and holds my head. He forces me to look at him.

"Something happened and you are going to tell us tomorrow, but for now go to sleep." He says and he lets me get into my bunk.

I can't tell them. Not now, I don't plan on telling them ever. Now I need to come up with a lie.I won't let them find out.