The Other Lovato

Tommorow?!?

*Kelci*
*Trigger Warning*

As soon as we got home I ran upstairs to my room,Without saying a word to anyone. Nobody said anything to me either they all just watched me run up the upstairs.

I get to my room lock the door and breakdown. I can't believe what I just did. I just told. Told one of my biggest secrets and now I don't know what to do. I've been hiding it for so long but know my whole family is about to find out and that scares me. It scares the shit out of me. I don't know how they are gonna react. They could disown me or even worse send me away to some treatment centre. Which is definitely not what I want. I know that I'm not gonna like anything that's going to come in the future. My life is over.My family is gonna make a decision on what to do with me and I know that i won't have a say in any of it.

I don't understand why I was so stupid. Stupid enough to let someone find out. Why couldn't have I just eat that burger with no fuss like everybody else does. Why did I have to panic. Why when I was eating did I think about all the calories instead of just enjoying the burger like anyone with the normal mindset would. Normal? What even is it anymore. I'm not normal. If I'm not "normal" what am I? Am I crazy? Why can't I just eat? Like what the fuck eating is what everybody does but why do I find it so difficult it comes easy to everyone so why doesn't it to me.

I just wish i was "normal". I hate this, I hate everything about it. But I even though I do I can't stop doing it. I can't start eating because eating=fat. I don't want to be fat I want to be skinny like all the rest of my family. I just want to be like them in some way. I'm nothing like any of my sibling they are all talented in every way possible but me I'm a failure. I'm no good at anything. I can't even keep a secret. So if being skinny is the only way I can be remotely similar to my siblings that's what I am going to do.

After being sat on the floor for 15 minutes thinking my mind is racing. I start to think of the one thing that helps when I feel like this. The one thing that helps numb the pain. Self harming.

I run into my bathroom slamming the door shut behind me. I frantically rush around my bathroom looking for them. My blades. I hide them but I always forget where I put them. I look behind my mirror and there I see one taped down. I grab it as fast as I can, rip my pants off. So I'm just in my underwear and I just start trashing at my thighs. I keep thrashing at my thighs until I don't have the energy to do it anymore. When I'm finished I drop the blade and look at the mess I have made. Blood all over my tile floor then I look at my thighs they are a disaster. They no longer look like thighs. I can't stand looking at them anymore so I stand up and get into the shower thinking I just wish it could be over.

*Demi*

We just got home and as soon as we got through the door Kelci ran upstairs. So now I have 2 very confused parents and 1 very very confused Dallas staring at me looking for answers. I walk into the living room and sit down on the couch. Dallas,mom and dad follow me in still
wanting answers from me.

"Where's Maddie?" I ask

"At Logan's she's been dropped off any minute now"mom says I just nod in response

"So what happened is she okay?" Dallas asks, I shake my head.

"No she isn't. She's far from okay we went to mcdonolds. As soon as our food came she started to nibble on her fries. Then the next thing I know she was crying and heading for the door. When I found her she was having a panic attack. She told me she couldn't eat" I tell them. I look up to see there faces. Shock was written on all there faces. As much as we all knew it was a possibility none of us wanted to believe it

"What are we going to do?" Dallas asks

"Firstly before we start making any big decisions we need to talk to her. I couldn't talk to her tonight she was in such an emotional state I didn't want to chance making her anymore upset"

"Well it's 9:47 so I suggest we leave the talking till tomorrow I'm sure she is exhausted. She can stay home from school tomorrow then we can talk to here about it then"mom says

"Yeah that's sounds good, anyways I'm gonna go to bed. I'm tired and I need to think. Goodnight" I say, mom,dad & Dallas all pull me into a hug before I retreat upstairs to my room

When I get to my room I change into some pjs and turn on my tv. I was about to get into bed but I decided to go check on Kelci. I walk across to her room and knock on the door. No answer? I decide to just chance it and walk in. Then I see her asleep in bed with tear stained checks. It makes me so sad to think that she cried herself to sleep. She doesn't deserve this she may be 15 but she is still a kid. No kid should be this unhappy. As a family we are gonna help her. She is going to get better she's so strong!

I go back to my room and get into bed. All I can think about is how tomorrow is going to go.

A/N: sorry it's short&knot much happens. A lot will happen in the next update. Thankyou for reading! Also sorry for any mistakes I do try to go over and check but sometimes I miss things. Next update will be soon-K💙