The Other Lovato

Its gonna be okay..

*Kelci*

I wake up to find I'm in my bedroom? I sit up& look around to see demi asleep next to me&Mom sleeping in the chair in the corner of my room. Why are they in my room?

I'm so confused, I look over at my bedside table and read the clock. It's 2:03am.

I don't know what to do? Should I wake demi up? I don't want her to be mad though,I'm so confused right now. Why am I just waking up,What happened?

I may as well just wake her up, instead of sitting here confused.

I slowly shake her awake,at first she doesn't move but after a few nudges she starts to wake up. When she is finally awake fully, she sits up and smiles brightly at me pulling me into her lap.

"Your awake,hey babygirl. Sorry mom& I tried to stay awake until you woke but we must have drifted off" she says

"What happened?" I say rather quickly, I just want to know what's happening

"What do you remember?" She says

"Nothing" I tell her. I really don't remember anything the last thing I remember was going to sleep last night well technically the night before but Yano.

"Nothing? Nothing at all?" Demi quickly questions

"No why. What did I do?" I question, scared of the answer. I hope I didn't do anything stupid

"Let's go down and talk so we don't wake up mom,yeah?"Demi says as she gets up pulling me along with her. We make our way downstairs and into the lounge. We sit together on the big couch. Demi once again pulls me close to her but I don't mind.

"Do you really not remember what happened?" She questions me once again. This is so confusing

"No I don't remember anything, I just remember going to sleep last night. Why don't I remember anything?" I ask worriedly

"You've got a concussion is all. You will remember what happened soon it may just take awhile for you to remember it all"She tells me, rubbing my back. In attempts to smooth me

"Tell me what happened?" I say.

"Babygirl yesterday morning you,dallas&i had a chat. You ended up telling us how you really feel. You told us everything. After you told us you ended up running back upstairs to your bathroom.We tried to get you to open the door but you wouldn't, eventually dad got home&opened it. We Found you on your bathroom floor unconscious, You  hit your head pretty hard on the floor as you fainted which is why you have a concussion. When dad moved you to your bed we found out about the self harm too"Demi says, oh my gosh. What have I done. I was always scared of this but for some reason I feel relieved.

"Oh" I simply say. Not knowing what else to say

"How do you feel? Talk to me, don't shut me out" Demi says

"I feel fine" I state. I really do, which is odd.

"Yeah okay, I'm not taking that as a answer. How do you really feel?" She questions further

"I'm okay really Demi, I mean you were gonna find out eventually I guess"

"Okay I believe you. Yeah,i wish you would have told us sooner,why didn't you?"

"I was scared you'd hate me"

"Hate you? Oh baby girl not at all. None of us could ever hate you, we are  family& we always will be. You know that you can always tell me anything& I will never judge you! But hey we know now okay, you were brave in telling us. I know how hard it is& now we are gonna help you. Your gonna be okay!"

"Am I though?"I whisper, I didn't mean to say it out loud, it was more of a question for myself

"Are you what baby"

"Am I going to be okay? I don't wanna do this anymore, but I don't want to die. I'm scared" I finally admit before bursting into tears.I'm more than scared I'm terrified.

"Come here baby girl, shh. I've got you! Your gonna get through this okay? Don't doubt yourself! It's not gonna be easy okay, it's hard. It's very hard,you'll have bad days but when you do we will be here to help you. Your gonna get through this!Your a Lovato, a born fighter" Demi's says, wiping away my tears.

"What's gonna happen?"

"We don't know yet for sure. Whilst you were sleeping we did a lot of talking. We talked about what we thought was best for you. We haven't figured everything out yet, but tomorrow we will okay. Mike is flying in, he's gonna help us"

"I love you!" I say snuggling into her

"I love you more baby girl, I'm so proud of you! And don't forget you can always talk to me okay? I don't care what time it is, I'll always be here for you ready to listen. I don't want you holding anything in, it's not healthy. You need to vocalise how you are really feeling, so we can do whatever we can to help. Promise me that you will talk to me?"

"I promise" I tell her& I wasn't lying
"What time is it?" I ask

"It's 2:56 do you want to head back up to bed?"

"No I'm not tired,can we watch a movie?"

"Off course we can, what do you wanna watch?"she asks, turning the tv on with the remote

"Uh I don't know, the fault in our stars?" I ask, grabbing a blanket from behind the couch,before snuggling next to Demi again.

"No not tonight,it's sad. I think a happy movie would be a better choice!"

"Okay I don't know then let's just look on Netflix" I say

After 15 minutes of searching from Netflix for a 'happy' film we decide on a film called "face2face". Neither of us have ever watched or heard anything about it so we thought we'd give it a watch since Demi said no to every other film I suggested. Tonight has been hard but I'm glad I can finally talk to Demi about everything,I feel better about how I've been feeling after talking to her. I hope she right about me being 'okay' but I'm not sure I'm fully convinced i guess we will have to see.....

A/N: It's been awhile but I'm back! Sorry it's been so long, I just took a little break to get myself figured out but I'm good now! I'll be back to updating as much as I can. I can't promise once a week but that's what I'm aiming for. Sorry for any mistakes, I did try edit it but it's late so I could have missed some mistakes. Comment&vote-K💙