Too much too young

34

It still hadn't sunk in, I left the hospital numb. It was amazing how a few little words could change your life.

Donnie hadn't let go of my hand since we left the hospital, he was my anchor to reality.

We were surrounded by press but they didn't affect me like they had hours before. They were all a blur, all I could see were colours.

Donnie was speaking to them answering their questions, I just couldn't speak. I hoped I would regain my composure soon, I was due to start filming in 3 days.

My new bodyguard Phil opened the car door while I climbed in, Donnie joined me and put his hand on my knee.

The day had not gone how he had expected either, I had been so preoccupied with what I was feeling that I didn't think to ask how he was.

"Are you ok"

Donnie gave me a tight smile. "I'm just in shock. I thought we would be leaving with the knowledge we would be having a healthy baby. I didn't expect this."

"We can do this together, I love you"

He brought my hand to his lips and kissed my knuckles "twins"

"Apparently so"

"Were having 2 babies, it's amazing" he was almost jumping in his seat. I knew that he had been acting neutral for my sake.

"I need to let the show know, I'm going to get huge. It will be hard to hide the fact that I'm pregnant"

"Emily they may make your character pregnant, don't worry about anything" he was so happy, I wished I shared his enthusiasm. I had felt joy when I thought there was one, but twins were something else. I was just in shock, I knew I would be happy about it soon.

"As I'm going to be huge soon anyway can we go get some food" I patted my still flat stomach.

"Phil take us home please"

"Hey I don't want to cook" I argued

Donnie smiled and ran his hand over my non existent bump "I hired a chef, she starts today"

"Why" it seemed like a waste or money to me.

"Your going to have to eat balanced meals now your pregnant and eventually you won't be able to cope with being stood over the hot oven" Donnie had it all figured out.

"Your not gonna be one of those overbearing partners that don't let a pregnant woman do anything"

"Damn straight I am, you and our babies could have died. I died a thousand deaths when I saw you were gone" he sounded stern. I knew how much he had worried, he had been on his way to Mexico to pay the ransom when he heard on the radio that I had been found. He told me he would pay every cent he had for me to be safe.

"I know I was lucky but I don't want you wrapping me up in cotton wool, I want to enjoy my pregnancy." Only two hours ago the thought of being pregnant was soul destroying and now it made me feel complete.

"Johnny has been calling, he's in LA and he's desperate to see you, usually I would be totally against it but...."

"But what" I asked.

His eyes were focused on the road ahead so his face was hard to read but it looked like he was confused "I know how I felt and it was hell, Johnny loves you too and he's a mess. He  wants to see you himself so he knows your alright. I told him we're serious and that your pregnant and he finally accepts it, he just wants to see you. He suggested I come with you for a meal at his hotel"

"When" I wouldn't be selfish I could understand his need to see me. We were not in a relationship anymore we weren't even speaking but I cared about him and if things were the other way around I would want to see him safe.

"No time like the present, his hotel is just up here"

He had planned to take me there this whole time, he had known what my answer would be.

"You were a little presumptuous" I said with a grin.

He laughed, "I just knew you would do the right thing"

He knew me too well, I suddenly was nervous. I could feel butterflies in my stomach, I was worried about Donnie and Johnny being in the same room. The last time they had come to blows.

I started to laugh as I thought back to our unique situation.

"What's so funny" he asked.

"The last time you two met I was with him and you were fighting to get me back, Now I'm with you."

Donnies smile didn't quite reach his eyes "I hope he doesn't get any ideas, I'm not letting you and our babies go anywhere"

"You won, don't worry you won't ever lose me" I meant it. I loved Donnie like I had never loved anyone. He made me complete. I didn't need to change anything about myself to be with him. He loved me for who I was.

"Do you still love him"

I almost choked on my bottled water, I wasn't expecting him to ask that. I didn't know the honest answer, or at least I don't think he wanted to know the honest answer.

"I did love Johnny, it may not have been what we have but it was love. Love doesn't just disappear after a few months, i care about him but im not in love with him. We had great times together, I was happy for the majority of it. I'll be honest if you wouldn't have fought for me back I would have probably take him back eventually ".

Donnies jaw clenched, He wasn't expecting me to be so honest. "You would have taken him back, he hurt you"

"He cheated on me, you broke my heart and our marriage and I took you back. I'll be honest if me and you were to split tomorrow I wouldn't go back to him. Nothing could compare to the love we share."

He didn't seem so sure, I grabbed his free hand "your my soul mate"