Too much too young

18

"This place is really nice. The view is amazing" I told him as I parked the car, Donnie had insisted I park in the garage in case any press came by and recognised it.

"I thought you would like it, papa buck helped me chose it" he told me, it was just a five minute walk to a bar that's probably the reason buck liked it.

I followed Donnie into a large dark wood kitchen where he opened a bottle of wine. I stood awkwardly against the large fridge and looked around, his house was very much like the one he had when we met. It was Modern, very much a bachelor pad.

Donnie handed me a glass of red wine. He took his phone from his pocket and quickly put it to his ear.

"Hi it's Donnie Johnson. Can you deliver 2 medium rare steaks, fries and the German chocolate cake please"

I looked at him with suspicion, he said he was going to cook for me. At least now we had more time to talk and become re acquainted. I was worried he would take me coming to his house as a sign I wanted to he more than just friends.

"Food will be here shortly, i have to tell you I love your show. I watch it every week, I'm going to miss it" Donnie said as we sat at his table.

"Thank you, I really loved working on it. I have 2 months until we start filming the next season so I will miss it"

"Will you tell me who killed the vicar, I think it's the police chief" Donnie replied.

I smiled at him, I didn't want to give anything away.

"Will you tell me" he asked, he did an absurd puppy dog face and shook his bottom lip.

I threw my head back in laughter, there was no way I was going to tell him.

"I'm sworn to secrecy" I said putting my hand on my heart.

Donnie and I sat together comfortably. We both ate our meals and half of the large chocolate cake. Everything has been so simple , there weren't any awkward moments. He didn't try to be anything other than my friend. It's what I needed.

"I'm sorry about everything that happened in vegas, I felt so guilty when I heard what that guy did. its because he thought you had cheated with me wasnt it" Johnny said as he looked at his knotted fingers.

i bit my lip and looked at the floor, we had been having such a nice afternoon i didn't want to ruin it with talks of the past. "i think it was always in him, i think he just though that if i had cheated first then it gave him a free pass. "

"you loved him didnt you"

"i did " i replied honestly. i felt embarassed and kind of guilty talking about this with Donnie. I had been less than supportive when he told me he had wanted me back.

"do you still love him" he continued.

i shook my head, i could not love someone who could hurt me like that.

"do you still love me" he asked.

my head snapped up and searched his eyes, i wasnt sure what to say. i knew the answer dep down i did. i had always known.

"yes you were my first true love after all" i whispered

"i love you too kid" he said gently as he took my hand in his.

"im still not ready for children, i havent changed. i still want a life" i told him , his big eyes felt like they were penetrating my soul.

"im not saying we should run off get married and have kids, lets try being friends first then maybe go on a date. i know i was wrong before, i knew the day after i sent the paperwork but i was too proud to admit it"

i couldnt breath, my mouth was as dry as the sahara. i wanted to jump into his arms but he was right we had rushed everything the first time and i had only been single a couple of months. we needed to build a strong friendship that needed to be our priority. I wasn't sure what was going on, I wasn't thinking I was following my heart.

"ok ill be your friend" i whispered.

"so as your new friend i suppose the decent thing to do would be to take you somewhere to celebbrate your birthday" donnie joked.

"im actually having a party at my new place, well its more of a casual dinner party. your welcome to come" i offered, i hoped he accepted, i had been lost without him. I realised now i had been distracting myself so the grief of his lost love didnt eat me up. the feelings i had shared with johnny were real and they were special but what donnie and i shared had always been like a fairytale.

"sounds great can i bring a date"

i rose my eyebrows at him, this friend buisness wasnt going to be smooth saling if it meant i had to witness him on dates with other women.

"my popa buck comes in to town Tuesday im sure he would love to come see your house" he said throwing his head back, he found the horrified look on my face amusing.

i threw my balled up napkin in his face, "im glad you find it so funny, i could eaily change my mind you know. i do hold grudges" i said playfully.

"i know your stuburn for such a dainty thing, talking of grudges . do you see Gina"

i closed my eyes and thought of the friend who had sold my story to the press, i hadnt seen her since the eve of my 20th birthday. I could still remember seeing her sobbing as she apologised. it hurt that we wernt in contact anymore but i knew it was for the best. i would always want the best for her in life i jus wasnt going to be part of it,

"no not since you and i were in vegas" i replied.

"i always thought you would, you were always such a forgiving person."

i shook my head i wasnt that forgiving not when it came to the people i loved betraying me.

"im not sure my dad would agree with you" i replied

donnie looked confused, i realized he didnt know about me bumping into my dear old dad.

"johnny and i saw him in vegas, i confronted him. he didnt recognize me, i had to tell him who i was. he just stood there looking at the ground, it turns out he was recently released from prison for drugs" i hissed. just thinking of my dad made me mad, i shouldn't have had to look after myself so young.

"what a bastard, i wished i could have been there to comfort you" he said as he rubbed my hands in his own. for the first time since coming back to LA i truly felt like i was home, i was meant to with donnie i knew it in my heart. I needed to get out of here before the whole friendship thing went out of the window, i could feel my lips getting drawn to his.

"i have to go , roxys been in the garden all day." i rambled as i jumped up and grabbed my bag.

"i can feel it too, its ats though were 2 peces of the same puzzle, i feel like im being pulled to you. ive missed you kid" he replied as he brushed my face.

"ive missed you calling me kid" i swooned.

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