The One That Got Away

Chapter 32: Forbidden Bliss

Perfectly shaped brows..

Beautiful long lashes..

Pink sweet kissable lips..

A fragile little angel who were wrapped in perfectly white duvet and was softly clinging in my torso.

How beautful life it could be if you wake up everyday looking at these...

I know. It was almost a bliss. Frightening yet worth risking. There will always that fear of unknown and uncertainty but happiness overshadows it. And as they say, as long as you're happy... everything will be fine. Everything will fall in their right places.

Tears began to spill from my eyes. I held unto her like a lost boy who had found his way home. She was my home. I didnt know where we were heading from here all I knew was that I belong to her. No matter what life holds for me it could never change the fact that my happiness was in her keeping.

I took a deep breath taking it all in. Savouring the moment. What happened to us last night was pure bliss. It was never planned, I just let my emotions took over me. The way she touch me, the way she kissed me, the way she held me in her arms and the way she softly moan my name. Everything was perfect. Hindi ko inakala na may isasaya pa pala sa buhay ko. I know this is wrong in any angle and in so many levels. I am cheating my wife, it was clear to me, pero diko rin mapigilan ang puso kong umibig sa kanya. Who wouldn't fell for this woman who did everything for our child. That everyday, when I look in her eyes, I always see that pain inside her and I want it all to take away.

I build this house for her and for God's sake I was planning to marry her. She was a big part of me right from the very beginning at eto na yung chance kong bumawi para sa kanila. Kat doesnt deserve my love and those five years were nothing compared to what Iam feeling right now.

I kissed her head and she looked up to me and wiped my tears. I didnt even notice that I was still crying until she put her hand in my face. I held her hand and kissed the back of it. Her sweet scent is so addicting.

She stared at me for a while as I held her gaze. My heart did a slow, painful turn in my chest as her eyes roamed around my face, taking in the details just as much I did to her. She suddenly looked down and spoke.

"Im afraid I'll wake up from this dream and find you gone again." Her voice held so much emotions in it that turned me speechless. I felt her move closer and hugged me tighter. Hindi lang pala ako yung natatakot. We both scared to loose this.

I touched her face that it made her look at me. "Hindi ito panaginip Shin. Im here and Im not going anywhere."

I smiled and kissed her lips. The kiss went deeper and before I knew it, I was inside her again.

***

Over the past hours,I have been struggling with the uncertainty. Precarious, erratic, risky... whatever you call my decision may be. It only boiled down to the fact that, no matter what the reasons are, even if it was not enough if given the justification, all I did was because it felt right,it felt real and thats it.

I never knew of a good way to describe the feeling I was having right now. My limbs were tired, my legs felt heavy but the delicious ache between my tight, was what really caught me. It wasnt an unpleasant feeling just one I wasnt used to. I found myself smiling when I remembered what happened last night and early this morning. I rolled to my side but was surprised to find the absence of Ian's warmth.