The One That Got Away

Chapter 18: Just Yzian

"Ian didnt mean what he said." I looked intensely at her and stared into her eyes. Her mood immediately changed.

"Thats insane! Hindi pa ba sapat yung nangyari kanina? He didnt want this. He didnt want my child.
He didnt want anything related to it. Kaya please lang erik.." she silently spoke but cautious enough not to disturb little Yzian's sleep.

"...Ian has a brain tumor Shin." I cutted her off. Her brows immediately furrowed.

"Nang malaman namin yung sakit niya he flew to london agad to be with you kaya napaaga yung paglipad niya sa london than what you had talked about." We sat on the sofa and started collecting her thoughts.

"The doctors here are alarmed sa mabilis na paglaki ng tumor niya kaya yung kaya lang nilang ibigay na assurance is 15% of survival after some operations." I sighed as I remembered how Ian argued with the doctor before.

"He didnt take that, instead pumunta siya sayo and to win you back kasi iniisip niya ano pa yung sense na magpapagamot pa siya kung ang ending nun mamatay naman siya? Ayaw niyang ilaan yung natitirang araw niya na buhay pa siya for that 15% survival rate."
She looked at me at stared deeply in my eyes. I continued.

"...Ian loved you so much Shin, that he didnt want to worry you. Ako at si Carlo lang ang nakakaalam. I didnt give up on him. Binigay ko yung case niya sa kaibigan ng pinsan kong doctor. That gave us 70% survival rate. I convinced Ian to take that, kaso ayaw ka niyang iwanan ka nalang ng basta basta. He didnt have enough reason to leave you shin. Ayaw naman niyang sabihin sayo yung totoo kasi alam niya na pag nalaman mo, you will give up everything in london just be with him. You are at the peak of your career and Ian loved you so much that he didnt want to ruin all your dream just because of him kaya nagdahilan nalang siya na theres someone else." I explained what happened and making sure shes taking it all in. She held her chest tight  with her right hand and the tears began to form.

"He flew to California immediately with a heavy heart knowing that he just left you in there. Ikaw lang ang minahal ni Ian, Shin. But he chooses to tell you na may iba siya kasi kung ano't anuman ang mangyari sa kanya after the operation, kung mamatay man siya, atleast mas madali mong matatanggap kasi alam niyang galit ka na sa kanya." Shin looked away from me and bowed her head. Her hands clung tight to the sides of her pants and fighting the tears to come out.

"He had undergone several operation. The last operation he had, left him on comatose state for almost 6 months. Kala namin hindi siya magsusurvive. I thought he rembembered everything but not until he flew back to Philippines. He forgot about you shin. Every little thing that reminds you of him. The next thing I knew? Hes married with Kat and had Trixie." I bitterly spoke.

"I kept my mouth shut kasi ipinangako ko kay Ian na no matter what, hinding hindi ko sasabihin sayo kung ano yung sitwasyon niya. I was torn between you two... I was torn between my bestfriends who needs me. Im sorry shin, kung alam ko lang na ganito ang mangyayari, sana sinabi ko nalang sayo nuon pa." Its time now to give it to my bestfriend. Ipit ako sa dalawa, I know nakapangako na ako kay Ian a few years back. Pero bestfriend ko din si Shin, I owe it to her.

Shin stared at me for a while and there I saw the longingness in her eyes. She didnt say anything from it. Instead, she return her gaze on her daughter and silently cried her heart out there.

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Ian's pov

I was standing on the same white door when I came to my senses. The sun shines so bright that it blinded me from where Im standing, then thats when I realized that Im on the hospital again. The same hospital that suffocates the hell out of me last night. I dont know how come I came here, but theres something in me thats pulling me entering that white building. As Im waiting for the elevator to open up, two nurses also waited with me. They are talking and buzzing about their patient's case and it bothers me so I brought my phone out not just to ignore them but to check on my email too. The 2 nurses talked a little too loud this time and it caught my attention.

"..meron na bang dugo for patient Go sa room 214?"

"Wala pa nga eh. Kawawa yung bata."

The nurse' last word crushed my heart. How shitty Iam to just abandon that child here? Does it even matter if thats my child or not? What matters now is that I can save a life through my blood. For heaven's sake, that child is yzian. The little girl that longed for a father figure. That girl who wished that its me whom she wants to be her father. The little girl I once fell in love with the moment I saw her at the hallways of GMA. Regardless of who her mom is or what has fate doing to all of us.

That child needs me. She needs my blood.

And if shes really my child, this is the least I can do for her.

I cleared my troat to catch the the nurse's attention.

"Excuse me, saan po yung laboratory niyo?"

"Ummn.. dito po go straight and turn left."

"Okay, thanks." I smiled at them and immediately went there.

I entered the laboratory and welcomed by the receptionist.

"Good morning sir, how may I help you?" She smiled.

"Can I donate blood for patient Yziandrea Go?" I asked.

"Sige po, pafill up'an nalang po itong form."

I took the paper and started writting on those paper . The receptionist told me to enter the separate room. The medical technologist did a little interview and took a little blood from me to test for my hemoglobin level and if Im capable of donating blood gladly, i passed all of it.

I lay on the bed as he prepared his materials.

"Sir, ilang cc po ng blood yung tatanggalin sa inyo?"

"Take out all the blood if you can, I dont care! I just want my child to survive"

That shocked me as much as it shocked him.

My child.

Yzian is my child. No need for a DNA test. She is my child. That lukso ng dugo played its game right in the moment I saw her for the first time.

He inserted the needle and I couldn't help myself from remembering that very moment when I first glance on her beautiful face, the way she politely talked to me. The way I held her in my arms to look for some treats to eat. How shes comfortable being with me and and how those little eyes plead for me to be his father.

For that moment, ang naiisip ko lang ay siya. No kat, no Trixie, no Shin, just her.

Just Yzian.

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Huhuhu dami ko pong time. As in madami talaga😂😂😂😭😭😭lol. Im so stressed with school stuffs 😢