Her Affliction

26. Out of Reach

26. Out of Reach

"Sir, y-you need to sign this." I glared at my secretary and she ran out from my office. I don't want to fucking sign anything. I don't want to move. I just want my Hestia back.

This is getting out of hand. She shocked the hell out of me when she told me to get out of her house, like what the fuck? I wanted to embrace her but she pushed me away. What the fuck did I do? Well, fuck myself. I fucking know what I've done.

I left her for one week and a half.  No calls, no texts, no nothing. I stood up and walk towards my office glass window. Its my fault, totally my fault. Amity called me that night and I rush to her. Pinuntahan ko sya dahil sa nakasanayan ko na. Na kapag umiiyak sya at kailangan nya ako ay pupunta ako.

Alam kong mali because Hestia is my girlfriend but I'm fucking confused. Amity is the one that I love. Well, I don't want Hestia to leave me. Call me selfish but I don't want that to happen. We spend one week and a half, dapat ay matuwa ako dahil makikipag hiwalay na si Amity kay Tristan. But I just can't find that happiness.

I tried, I tried to focus on Amity but Hestia keeps on popping in my fucking head. She's my girlfriend but I'm a fucking cheater. Naihilamos ko sa mukha ko ang mga palad ko.

In the first place all of this happened because of my love for Amity but right now, I just don't know what to do. My Hestia is crying again for the fucking nth time because of me.

Bumukas ang office door ko at pumasok muli ang secretary ko. I throw her a glare.

"What the fuck do you want?" Hindi ito makatingin ng diretso sa mga mata ko.

"Si-sinabi ko po kay Ma'am Amity na a-ayaw nyo--"

"Hello, Apol. How are you today, babe?" My eyes flew to Amity. She's wearing a red dress. "You can get out now." Nagmamadali namang lumabas ang secretary ko. I looked at Amity, she walks towards me.

"What the hell are you doing here?" Sa isa't linggong kalahati ko syang kasama ay walang ginawa si Tristan kundi tawagan sya. They fought and Amity run away.

"Don't you want to see me? Did you just forget our one week and a half vacay huh?" She sat on my lap and I don't fucking know what happen because I pushed her. Amity's eyes widened.

"Ano ba, Apol?! Nung bakasyon ganyan ka din! Don't you want me anymore?" Sigaw nya sa akin. I stood up from my swivel chair.

"I have a girlfriend." She laughed at me.

"You have a girlfriend? But you spend a week and a half with me! Sa linggong magkasama tayo Apol, you are fucking acting strange! Do you love that poor fucking girl huh?" I closed my eyes. I'm refraining myself from hurting her.

I don't even want to have sex with Amity. I just don't like it. Everytime Amity kisses me and I close my eyes, Hestia's face pops in my mind. I glared at Amity.

"Don't call her like that. She's not like you." She slapped me hard. It fucking stings.

"I'm not like her! Hindi ako panakip butas. Are you losing your mind? You love me!"

"No..." Her mouth fell open. Kahit ako ay nagulat sa sagot ko. It just slip out of my mouth.
"Fuck, Apol! You love her? You choose her over me? What the hell!"

Amity is walking back and forth. I'm analyzing what I've just said and fuck this is shocking. I just said that I don't love her anymore and fuck, I'm not lying. I don't love Amity anymore.

"You're acting strange lately. Dahil ba sa kanya? Akala ko ba ako ang mahal mo? Fuck, Apol. Mahal kita! I'm willing to leave Tristan. You changed! You fucking changed bigtime!" Umiiyak na si Amity pero alam kong may desisyon na ako.