Speaking Without a Mouth (Poetry Collection)

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everything i wanted to look like...

everything i wanted to do...

everything i have been told...

everything that you know...

everything i feel...

everypain i feel ...

everypain you feel.

                  we feel.

i dont know you...

i dont know why...

i dont know how i did it...

                    but i did it...

i am sorry, sincerely, but it will never matter

i've only seen you in dreams

even before i knew you existed

         and i wish i hadnt

dear lord, i wish i hadnt

because you ruined me

  completely ruined me

  completely tore me apart

                     tore me from the inside out

now where am i now?

   can you guess now?

      do you know now?

i'm excactly where you want me

       in pain

       in tears

       in love

and in fears

     i care about who you are

but i dont know who you are

and it makes no sense..

i dont hate you, i only hate what happened

and in my head i forgave you,

                   and i forgave you too...

but i still cant bear to know you exist

just the same way you cant bear me

he said he's free...

                          and one day i hope to be