Diary Entry - Eundeok Married Life (Baekhera) [COMPLETED]

Back home finally

Eun's diary

Mission accomplished! I have successfully tricked Soondeok and brought her to find Yixing with me! She was mad at first, of course, but soon she started to enjoy the trip herself. That's the only way she'll agree to come with me – mother taught me how to make her, she really is brilliant! Anyways, I'm glad we have returned just in time for Soondeok's birthday. I promised I'll make a party for her and mother said she's prepared everything for the party tomorrow. Oh how exciting! It'll be Soondeok's first birthday party!

I met Yixing, I missed him so! He looked drained, he had to travel near and far to do business and when he returns to his hometown for a rest, he has lots of guests and gatherings to go to. I wish he could come back to Goryeo with me, to have a proper holiday, but I know it's not possible now. I'll wait. I know he misses me as much as I do. He sure was surprised to see me arriving the city with his merchant line – we had dinner together, just the two of us. Soondeok wanted us to chat to our heart's content, my little sister really is so considerate. We talked about tonnes of stuff. He told me stories of the far west, how he endured sand storms in Persia and how he hiked the mountains after a landslide. I asked him if he's thought of marrying, but he shook his head saying he's too busy with work for love. I understand, I believe Yixing is married to his work.

He asked about me, about my marriage life – I told him everything, he's someone I trust so I told him all there is to know. He said something funny though as we said goodbye, he said, 'Your highness, sometimes the ones we don't know the most is ourselves. To know ourselves, we need to listen to our hearts, to listen to our hearts, we must look at the actions we take. From what I've heard and seen these couple of days, your highness, your wife means more to you than you think. I hope you can realize that before it's too late.' What could he possibly mean? Is he saying that I actually have started to like Soondeok? Not as my little sister but...as my wife? As my woman? I've always thought love is like a firework, it'll hit you hard and knock you down – but could there be another kind of love of which its arrival is silent and its presence...unnoticed?

Soondeok's diary

I'm back, I'm finally back. After travelling for months! You have no idea what I've gone through in the past 3-4 months or so! Come to think of it, I'm still a bit mad. So that day Eun took me for a picnic – he tricked me! He said he knows a good spot somewhere so I followed him and after riding for a long time, I asked him where we're going then he smiled mischievously and said, 'To the West sea'. Heck! I was mad! He said he wanted to go there with me but afraid that I won't agree so he did this! He told me to consider it even since last time I tricked him into going to the border when the king died.

Eventually, I agreed – no point in returning home then, so we carried on and made it to the West sea after travelling for 2 days. We had a nice time there, we raced each other on the beach, galloping as seagulls flew above us, as we hear the waves crashing against the shore – I was winning but then Eun jumped to my horse. We fell in the water and as he tried to escape, I pulled his leg and he collapsed back. We fought for a while – I was really really furious then, so furious I wanted to punch him! But then he pulled me down and kiss me on the forehead...what happened didn't matter. Will I never be able to get mad at him? Every time I want to yell at him he would do things that makes me smile again. We laid there in silence on the sand as the waves come to us gently. For once, I acted wild. For once, I was happy. For once, I did things without thinking about the consequences.