Diary Entry - Eundeok Married Life (Baekhera) [COMPLETED]

Let's just live this way

Soondeok's diary

The sun's up, air's starting to warm up, and our room still smelt of strong alcohol. Eun must've drunk heaps last night, he's cute when he's drunk, his rosy cheeks, his deep voice and his peaceful face, I can't help but remember our first night. Time truly flies. I can't get something out of my head though, the word "Byul" – Eun uttered it a few times last night before he fell into deep sleep. Who could it be? Is it a person or did he just meant it as a star? Somehow my heart don't feel so good after hearing it. Am I jealous? I don't know, I think it's this uncertainty that made me feel a bit uncomfortable. I should just let it go, shouldn't I? But something's not right. Eun told me his story yesterday, I should feel even closer to him right now, but why's that not the case? It would seem that Eun didn't remove a mask but simply changed it to another one. Is there something upsetting him but he can't let me know? I'm not asking him to tell me but I do wish I can somehow help him feel better. Still, he never forgets to smile and cheer me up whenever I feel down or tired, at times, he's still the same old playful prince I've fallen in love with.

Oh what should we do today? I heard there's a waterfall nearby, I'm dying to see it for myself! Does Eun know where it is? This place is nicer than I first thought actually. Our bedroom is much bigger than the one in the capital – we have bath indoor and a closet double that we had at home. The bed is much bigger too! There's this window that gives this awesome view of the mountain behind our residence, oh I'm sure it'll look lovely when snow starts to fall.

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(Eun's sweating hard, he's having a nightmare again)

Soondeok: "AAAAHHHH!!!!"

Eun: "Soondeok ah, you're doing great! Just one more push! Just one more! You can do it!"

Soondeok: "AAH!!! I...Oppa I..."

(Soondeok pants as she pushes yet another time with all she can)

Midwife: "Your highness, please leave the room! This is no place for men! We can handle-"

Eun: "Shut it! I'll be with my wife! Can't you see she needs me? Why is she taking so long? It's been an entire day!"

Soondeok: "I...I don't think I can do it...I...I...ah..."

Midwife: "My lady, when the next contraction comes, please try to push and hold. It's almost over!"

(Soondeok nods weakly, barely able to open her eyes. Eun keeps uttering sweet words to cheer her up.)

Eun: "Deok ah, I'm right here. Your cutey cutey Oppa is here~ Don't you worry, Soondeok ah, everything will be alright. You're doing awesome!"

Soondeok: "I'm scared..."

Eun: "Honey, you're the bravest person I know! And-"

(Another contraction comes and Soondeok's scream tears through the house, Eun holds onto her hand even tighter and wipes off her sweat for her)

Soondeok: "UUUHHH!!!! Mommy!!!! AAAAAHHHH!!!!!"