Diary Entry - Eundeok Married Life (Baekhera) [COMPLETED]

I'm getting impatient

Eun's diary

Guess who's going to go to the north market tonight! We're going there tonight after dinner! I begged and begged and begged Soondeok and finally this morning she said yes! Nothing beats a night market date on Friday evening, right? I've come to realize that I've missed so much fun not bringing Soondeok out as often as I could in the past, imagine how awesome it would've been if we had!

Soondeok's slowly remembering things now, though most of the time the result wasn't as nice as we expected. She'd take a day or two before she can re-accept her 'new' memories as part of herself everytime she remembers something new. My wife's very cute when she blushes as the old memories flush back, it's mean for me to say this but I like seeing her suffer this way, her reaction's too adorable.

You know, I've been thinking, should I take Mongryong back from my aunt? Because we've been away from the house for so long, mother sent Mongryong to my aunt as she thought Mongryong will be too bored in this house and fair enough, aunt need some kind of companion as well. If Mongryong comes back, will it help trigger Soondeok's memory to return as well? Maybe I should talk to mother about it. I miss him too, to be honest, thinking about his short little legs and his cute little butt as he runs in the garden makes me want to hold him again.

There's something on Soondeok's mind, something new, something different, something she can't bring herself to tell me. I don't know what but I sure hope it's not bothering her too much. I hate to see her being upset.

Soondeok's diary

Yuju came over yesterday and told me more about this second wife of the prince. She's older than me, I'm told, but no one knows who she is exactly. I tried to find out myself, looking at the list gives me a headache, there are over a hundred of girls whom grandpa has visited, and many more whose father or grandfather is working in the palace for the king.

But to be honest, must I know? I won't stop it from happening, is it really necessary for me to know? What if the 'old' me really did allow grandpa to do this? What if my 'old' self wanted this to happen after pondering upon this issue day after day, moon after moon? On one hand I want to just let it slide, but on the other hand, I want to make sure that this person, won't bring any harm to the prince. I feel very uneasy about this, but I can't bring this up to my husband. If he knows, he'd definitely make a huge fuss about it, he'd try to run away with me and all. Not that I don't want to, but we can't leave mum here, and we can't just disappear overnight.

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