Diary Entry - Eundeok Married Life (Baekhera) [COMPLETED]

Before the storm

Soondeok's diary

The prince's still sleeping, not surprised, I bet he and his friends finished drinking all the wine in the restaurant last night, seeing how drunk he was. Was it because he's drunk? He kept saying that we should fake a pregnancy, you know, to get away with the divorce law. He's not serious right? It's absolutely ridiculous! I bet he won't even remember what he said when he wakes up today. I, on the other hand, will continue digging into the law books I have with me. Almost a quarter way through, I spent the entire night reading – my eyes were hurting, which is why I'm writing this now, to give myself a little break.

I haven't read or focused on something this hard for a very long time, I must be getting old, my shoulder aches sooner than I expected. And now, I can't even go into the garden to stretch about because the prince kind of locked us up for 3 days in our room. To make baby with me, he said. Gosh. The maids aren't allowed to come in so they just left our meal outside, I'm hungry, but I can't eat yet, Eun has to wake up first...

Eun's diary

She thought I was joking? I clearly told her that we're going to fake the pregnancy but she just kept telling me that it's nonsense and that we shouldn't do that. Nonsense? I'd say it's the best plan in the world! I tried explaining to her again this morning but she'll have none of it. She said she'll only agree to it if we can't find a solution within these 3 days, so now I'm locked in the room with her, for three whole days, and instead of sleeping with her all day long like what I'd hoped, I'm reading law books and taking notes for her.

Eun ah, why did you even let this happen?

I saw that maid again last night, it was horrifying. Her voice, her look, her words – she picked those words cautiously, making sure they hurt me deep. If only grandpa would just die! He's supposed to die soon anyway, why's he fussing about suddenly? For a million times, I've told him to leave me alone, to just let me live as a prince – a stupid, good-for-nothing prince, but why oh why must he make me a king? Why must he form bonds with the powerful?

I really don't get it. What's so important? Having money, power and all won't make me happy – why's he so concerned about these things? I don't see why he needs money, he's got lots already, almost as rich as His Majesty himself. Power, he's got that too. Two of his daughters married my father, and the aunt staying with us now was married to the queen's cousin – he's got all the power he needs in Goryeo, it's just that he's never used them for a good cause.

Whatever, I don't want to think about this anymore.

Soondeok's having a nap now, she's been up the entire night, reading, and there're still lots of books left to be read. This solution will be better than my insane suggestion, she told me. Insane? If you ask me, I'm not the one who's insane, she is! Who even reads law books? I can't even finish one page without yawning!

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