Diary Entry - Eundeok Married Life (Baekhera) [COMPLETED]

A way out

(Soondeok wakes up in the middle of one night as a sharp pain pierced right through her, it's a miracle she didn't scream, yet after that single shot of pain, it ceased, then nothing happened. Soondeok breathed deeply and slowly, trying to recover from what she's just experienced, but to her surprise, she's not the only one awake. Someone's crying, a soft muffling and sniffing sound reached her ears as she laid there in silence, it was her husband who's crying beside her – his face to the wall)

'Darling...are you alright?'

(Soondeok whispers, touching her husband's quivering back. Silence. Obviously Eun is trying to pretend he's asleep, but Soondeok knows he's faking it, she's been living with him for 3 years, how can she not know?)

'Oppa, my darling Oppa, what upset you so that made you cry in the middle of the night? You can tell me, we may not live the way we used to, but we still have each other don't we? You can share with me your feelings, your thoughts, I'm still here.'

(Slowly, Eun turns to face Soondeok, the room isn't bright enough for them to see each other's face clearly, but they don't need any light really, they know each other so well they can 'see' each other's face even in the dark. Soondeok can sense her husband on the edge of breaking into a full sob, so she embraces him and let him cry – not out loud of course.)

'Oh Deok ah...I'm scared...I'm really really scared...'

'It's normal to be scared. Aigoo, there there...everything's going to be fine.'

'Mother...and aunt...I know hyung must've killed my family by now...I know...and I should've joined them, I shouldn't have left them all behind. If hyung caught me instead of them, he might've let them live.'

'My dear husband, don't say such a thing, it's not your fault, they didn't die because you ran away, they were going to be killed by the king anyway.'

'No, hyung just wanted me dead, if I let him kill me...who knows...maybe if I begged him, he'd let them live.'

'There's no way of knowing what could've happened if we had taken another path, Oppa, things just are as they are now and we must do our best to survive. Just a few more days, we mustn't give up.'

'Deok ah...they won't take you too right?'

'Oppa...'

'Promise me you won't die...no matter what...I can't let them take you as well...I won't be able to bear it.'

'Shhh, darling, I'm going to get you to safety. You will leave Goryeo, safe and sound, this you have my promise.'

'Deok ah...'

(Eun holds her hand, not thinking of letting it go – she's the only one he has now)

'I love you, Soondeok ah, I really do, you know that right?'

(Soondeok smiles in reassurance)

'Of course, my prince, I know you love me, the way I love you.'

(She kisses his hand)

'Now, let's go back to sleep. There there, stop crying okay? Sleep now, go to sleep.'

'Deok ah, let's chat a bit longer while it's still dark, before the maids start coming here in the morning...we barely talked to each other in the day when they're here.'

'Sure, my dear husband...what do you want to talk about?'

'Oh I don't know...just...stuff...'

(Eun pulls her close to himself, hugging her tightly, yet the feeling seem different to Eun, like there's something in between them)