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It Hurts To Do What's Right

Description: Uh.. Not good at summaries. I just need to warn you that this is the evil child of my 15 minutes of spare time. This was never meant to exist.

Warnings: Death and sadness (why so much death recently jfc)

It was always a big occurrence in the fandom when a new video from Dan was posted. Everyone would freak out and take screenshots and make gifs and note all the little things as quickly as they could. It was like a race. But at 4:37 pm, December 11th, it was a little different. There had been no live show from Phil on Saturday, and no announcement to explain why. The radio show was just “unavailable” on Sunday, and once again, no explanation. Everyone was on edge. Everyone was a little worried. There had been no tweets, no Facebook posts, nothing updated on either boy’s tumblr. So when Dan’s video was posted, people were ready for an explanation. But no one was ready for what was said.

The video was poor quality, obviously filmed with the red camera they used to film the Day In The Life videos. It was shaky and the lighting was bad, and something about it seemed uncomfortably quiet. All was quiet except for soft, sad sounding music in the background, playing quietly from somewhere off screen. Dan wasn’t in his room. He was standing up, wearing a suit and a grim expression. He didn’t even bother to fake a smile as he stared into the lens. “Hey.” That was all he said before he started visibly shaking. He sighed and buried his face in his arm. “Sorry. I just.. Felt like maybe you deserve an explanation.” He bit his lip hard and you could see he was closer to tears than we’d ever got to see him before. He didn’t say anything to explain. Instead he turned the camera so it would face the room behind him. There were lines of people dressed in black, all sobbing into handkerchiefs and hugging each other and sitting without words. And at the front of that room sat a long box beside a screen and a picture. A picture of the boy who saved so many lives over the years without even knowing. It was a picture of Phil. Dan turned the camera back to him. “I hope you understand. There won’t be any more shows, or videos for that matter. I feel like it would be wrong to continue.” He shook tears out of his eyes. “That’s it. I know guys, but sometimes it hurts doing the right thing. So, I guess this is goodbye. Forever.” There was a sound like a sob as the video ended. And that was it.

Dan never clearly explained. No one even proved if he continued existing after that. He seemed to disappear forever. A lot of us forgot Dan and Phil. A lot of us forgot the cat whiskers and radio shows and the videos that could make us laugh until we cried. A lot of us didn’t want to, a lot of us wanted to hold on to our boys. But Dan was right. Sometimes, it hurts to do the right thing. And maybe that’s because for some of us, the right thing is just so wrong.