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Description: Phil comparing his relationship with Dan in it’s early days to how it is now.

Warnings: Hella sad. It made one of my friends who doesn’t even ship them cry, and that’s all I can warn you of.

you were my sunshine

a beam of light

a glowing brightness through

a pixelated Skype chat

and you were scared

scared of growing up

and scared of me

i was scared too

though i never let you know

because you were made of glass

and i didn’t want to break you

i was scared you’d change your mind about us

because i knew i never would

you were my 18 year old dreamer

with galaxies in your eyes

and we danced through our webcams

under two different roofs

but one moon

and we promised each other

someday

the Manchester skyline

would be the light

under which we’d dance

and my arms

were your favorite place

and we were just kids

we were just dan and phil

i was just a 22 year old in love

but you said

to you,

i was home.

and now

you are still my sunshine

a beam of light

a glowing brightness

now walking through our front door

but you’re not scared anymore

and you’re mine, all mine

no longer

because youtube comes first

and i must share you with the world

with our friends and our fans

and you’re not

my 18 year old dreamer anymore

you’re a grown man

with realized dreams

of fame and money

of the life you always wanted

you have it all

and the galaxies in your eyes

have been shrunken down

to what is barely a pinprick

of starshine

but i still look

because i know our special universe

is there somewhere

i watch you asleep

at 4am

when you are most pure

and you look like maybe

my arms

are still your favorite place

and i worry

you still might break

if i hold you too tightly

but i know it can’t be

and you aren’t the same boy

with the same blind smile

i met so long ago

you’ve made me lie

about what we are

you’ve given me so many reasons

to cry when i remember the moon

and how we’d dance

and it hurts me so much

but i’ll do it for you

we have no time

for dancing in the moonlight

or wishing on stars

or talking about

the good old days

when my heart did

that flippy over thing

that was so nice

and the Manchester skyline

is long forgotten

and i’m nothing

because without a dan,

there is no phil

so all that remains

is that we’re just dan and phil

i’m just a 27 year old in love

and you’re the 22 year old now

and you’re in love too

but i’m just your dirty little secret

and to me,

you’ll always be home.