P.S. I'm Dying

P.S. I Almost Died When You Taught Me How To Sing

December 18, 2004

Christmas Party kanina.

I wore my Dark Princess outfit.

A black high-cut converse, hanggang below the knee.

A black shirt na may cute collar.

Cut-off jeans na above the knee ang haba.

Some bracelets na leather and brown beads.

A ring.

A spiny earrings and lip balm with my hair in a ponytail.

I came with my gift at napangiti ako nang makitang naka converse, white with black sleeves three-fourths, and ripped jeans siya.

So pumunta na yung may-ari ng videoke at ibinaba ang videoke sa tapat ng blackboard.
Kinuha ko agad ang songbook para tumingin ng mga alam kong kanta though I barely sing kasi sabog ang boses ko. Hindi ako marunong kumanta.

Mahilig akong tumingin ng song titles because I'm obsessed with music, I love them so much they became part of my life. Like I can't move when there isn't music. I love silence with music as a background.

Tumabi si Lex sa akin kasi titingin siya ng title. Magaling siyang kumanta.

After, I think, a bunch of songs they sang, kainan na. Naiwan kay Lex ang mike at kumanta pa rin siya habang ako nasa dulo ng pila.

Noong ako na ang next na kukuha ng food after ng nasa harap ko, kinalabit ako ni Lex. Nakangiti siya when he said, "Kanta tayo, Gabe."

Tumawa ako. Alam kong nang-aasar siya kasi he knows how badly I sing.

"Sira ulo." maiksing sabi ko sabay irap. He laughed then ngumiti siya at sinabing, "Dali na, huwag mo kasing hinaan boses mo, lakasan mo."

Then Forrest Gump's quote hit me:
If you can't sing good, sing loud.

"Eh!" tipid na sagot ko at umiling. Hindi siya tumigil. He convinced me.

"Dali na." panghihikayat niya at saka tinapat sa akin ang hawak niyang mic.

I just stared at him habang nakatitig din siya at kinakanta sa akin ang lyrics ng kanta tapos nakatapat sa akin ang hawak niyang mic.

That moment was kind of sweet para kalimutan and I was glad that "that moment" happened.

All the love,
Gabe

P.S. I almost died this time.