P.S. I'm Dying

P.S. I Almost Died In Jealousy That's Why I Badly Want To Forget You

August 17, 2004

I hate Lex kasi palagi na siyang malapit kay Sheryl and that made me think that he really has a crush on her. . . simula pa noong First Year. Who knows na baka until now, gusto pa rin niya si Sheryl just like me to him and I hated it!

Palagi siyang nakaupo sa tabi niya, kausap siya. . . ugh! Ayaw ko nang isipin pa!

I think. . . I should turn to someone na makakalimutan ko siya kapag nasa harap ako ng kung sino mang someone na iyon.

And I know who it is now.

I think. . . I like Onyx or Anthony, John Anthony specifically.

He doesn't want to be referred to as Tony or John Anthony or whatever names, he just wants his name to be concealed by Onyx, I don't know where did he get it or his parents did.

Last night, after doing our AP Project (an interview na ilalagay sa CD) he walked me home!

I know, yes, that is kind of sweet!. . . but then recently, nalaman kong talagang mabait lang pala talaga siya, as in handa niyang ipahiram sa may-wala ang kaisa-isa niyang ballpen makapagsulat lang ito kahit huwag na lang siya, and that is the kind of a gentle man be like!

Nagustuhan ko siya because of that, at sa tingin ko, matutulungan niya akong kalimutan si Lex kasi sawang-sawa na ako kaso may girlfriend siya!

What would I gonna do?

Pudpod na ang love,
Gabe

P.S. I'm dying to get the pain (Lex) out of my head.