The Rise of The Royal Rogue

Cliff diving.

We all have something we can't have. For me - it's for my parents to be alive, For the 13-year old -Never to have been raped -maybe a second chance at life? For Xander - I guess I wouldn't know, he hasn't told me anything about his family. Storm says it's a touchy subject... I figured she was hurt by the story too and I didn't ask about the topic again.

I was on my last ten minutes of break. Just yesterday I was stealing, breaking the law and causing chaos...now I'm a prim and proper queen. It happened so fast. Reality came crashing down. I am the royal Luna! I don't have a clue on where to start or what to do. I pray the moon goddess helps me get through this. I inhaled deeply. I feel out of place - maybe I wasn't supposed to be here? Tending to packs and serious matters was so - unrouge-like. I know can't be selfish because I was chosen as the king's mate. Fate would have me succumb to my duties in one way or another. I don't feel like myself at all.

In time we'll get used to this. I know this is a major shift but we will pull tough, we always do. -Grace spoke, offering support.

You're right... Speaking of shifts -we haven't been on one for a long time. Let's go on one after the meeting?

I changed the subject... I didn't feel like discussing this anymore than I had to. Grace was happy belonging in a pack... I was too- but maybe-just maybe - never mind...

I went back into the room and spent another 3 hours on problem solving. The meeting was adjourned and I spent another 2 hours on paper work. I was alone by the time I finished my work.

I went upstairs and took some clothes for my run. I didn't want to run around the pack naked again and have history repeat itself. Xander was still in a meeting so I left a message with a guard.

I walked into the forest and I shifted. I allowed Grace to take control and I relaxed at the back of my mind. I forget how amazing it was to run on all fours. My paws tapping against the earth. I just kept running. I forgot what it felt like to give up control and just go wild.In the palace I had to watch my every step. The council wouldn't approve of any mishaps.

I passed trees and shrubs. The smell of earth put me in a state of calm. I turned my direction around and ran towards the ocean. Xander's pack was situated near the beach. The calm, blue waves crashed against the rocks. I could smell the salt spray. The sand between my paws and the seagulls singing brought made me feel safe. I spotted a cliff. When I was a rogue, I absolutely loved cliff-diving. It was such a rush. Grace was never an adrenaline junky so naturally she saw where I was going and resisted.

Come on Grace. Don't be a chicken. - I teased.

I am not a chicken. What you're about to do is barbaric and un-queen like.

So? no one is around...

Fine! Go nuts- she rolled her eyes and I laughed.

I got to the top of the cliff. I shifted and changed into clothes. I looked down and the jump was probably 30-40 ft. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and pushed forward until I knew I was falling. The wind was gushing through my face and I positioned myself in a diving position so that my head went after my outstretched arms. I felt as if I was flying and I screamed out in happiness. It was like a rollercoaster.
Splash! I was in the water. It was so warm and my legs kicked, supporting my body. After so many months I've actually found some 'me-time' and I was enjoying every single second of it. A black Audi jolted on the shoreline. The door opened revealing a very angry Xander. He roared loudly. I swam as fast as I could towards the shore and when I reached there he was fuming.

He's eyes were red - showing his alpha mark.

" Xander, what's wrong? ", I stepped towards him and he growled.

What the hell?

"Get in the car! ", he demanded. He practically screamed at me and I shook.

"I refuse to get into that car until you tell me what the hell happened! ", I shouted back.

"You. You happened. ", he shouted.

Me?

"You are not allowed to leave the palace without me - you are to tell me of your whereabouts all the time! I do not expect to hear about your whereabouts from a guard. Do hell understand? You're soaked! Why the hell would you go cliff diving? You're the Royal Luna - if something were to happen. Just get in the car, its 13 degrees outside! ", he boomed.

"I am not an object. I'm not a lost puppy who will submit to your every demand. I refuse to be treated like a 5 year old child. I can take care of myself - I've done that for many years now. I know I'm the Royal Luna - but does that mean I have to give up who I was just to fit into your courtroom? Does it? Because you tell me Xander, what's so wrong about what I just did? "

"You are the royal Luna. Act like one - I don't expect you to give up who you are, all I ask is that you behave in a manner suitable for a royal not some fil-", he stopped dead on his tracks and glared at me.He's eyes softening.

I was in tears now.

"Say it! Some filthy what? ", I shouted. A tear I tried very hard to conceal slipped away.

"Rebecca", he stepped forward trying to console me.

I put a hand forward and stepped back.

"Some filthy rouge! ", I spoke. He whinched as I said it.

"I didn't mean to say it. Please -", he stepped towards me and I stepped back.

"No you meant it. People speak the truth in anger... I know this very well. ", I looked at the floor. Tears slowly fell from my face.

"I didn't mean it, I was just venting. I was worried about you. Please just get in the car Rebecca. ", he spoke softly.

"I'll walk. ", I began walking away from him

"But it's freezing and you're wet. It's also going to get dark soon. If you don't get in the car, I will carry you into this car. ", he shouted.

I ignored him and let on walking.

"Suit yourself! ", he got into the car and sped off.

Filthy rouge? That's how he views me? I have come all this way for nothing - Just to be called a rogue. Stereotypical of him!

I kept walking and I hugged my chest. I was feeling cold but I didn't want to shift. I wanted to savour the walk.

He didn't mean it... he was worried... - Grace said close to tears.

He did. We are rogues. The royal pack will never accept. We have given ourselves a painting already - rogue. Gamblers, murderers, trouble-makers...

I kept walking. There was a screech and Xander turned the car around and came back towards me.

He opened his window.

"Please come with me?", he asked softly. He looked into my eyes. I was a mess. I was an ugly crier.

I rolled my eyes and went towards the passenger's seat. I wish this car had a back seat, I prefer sitting behind him than next to him.