The view from up here was life changing. It was like staring at infinity. All my problems seemed to fade as I stared out the window. The blue and green ocean flowed into a mixology of colours. Small islands popped out of the ocean like stars scattered around the earth. They somehow alowed me to view th curvature of the earth. Everything was so vivid yet so tiny. My heart sank when a flight attendant called after me and pulled me back into the endless void of reality.
My throat was suddenly dry and hoarse.
"Mam, can I get you anything? ", she smiled, it was as if she practiced that look of hospitality in the mirror.
"Water, please. ", I didn't make eye contact.
This is it Grace... - I sighed.
Unaware of where life takes us - she cried.
I miss him. I miss him so much. I didn't even get to say goodbye properly. We're going to miss everything - Storm and Liam's baby - Xander's birthday - the way he made me feel was so unearthly. I love him and I know he loves me - I can feel it. I can feel him trying to get through our mind link... I can still feel him. His love that burnt like an inferno at night. I'm going to miss his warmth and how he filled my empty spaces - I began to cry.
We will get through this, remember, the further away we are - the safer everyone is... I can feel Blaze and Xander trying to break down our block on the minding. I can feel them trying - She cried out.
Tears flowed down my face uncontrollably and I let out a soft sob.
To the passengers I must have been just another person who left behind their family and loved one's.
I wasn't - I was a queen who left behind her king. I left behind my entire life and pioneered into uncharted waters.
The treachery and pain that came from a broken heart... full of broken dreams and what ifs and maybes.
It would take 16 hours to reach Dubai and I was certain that being so high up from the ground for so long in a contained environment with humans would mask my scent.
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I drifted of to sleep. Sleep was good- it was an escape from reality.
When I woke up, the timer in from had 5 hours left till arrival time. I groaned. My legs were killing me and I was still distraught. I got up to stretch and walked up and down the strip of walking space. It was night by now and the clouds mystified the sky. It was raining and I could tell their was a thunder and lightning storm.
People slept on each others shoulders while children rested their heads on their mothers laps. A movie played on the screens. An old couple huddled together to keep in their warmth.
They looked so peaceful and happy... so sweet to love someone all those years and in the end grow old together.
"Do you need anything mam? ", a flight attendant asked.
"No thank you, just allowing some blood flow. ", I smiled and she nodded.
Grace was not in a talkative mood and neither was I. Leaving our mates behind was painful an taking its toll in US. We lost our appetite and we were weak.
I went back to my seat and stated out of the window. Millions of miles away was my very worried an heartbroken mate.
I closed my eyes and squeezed in my tears. The thought if Xander burned me.
I had drifted of to sleep and was awakened by a flight attendant who lightly shook me awake.
I opened my eyes quickly and thought j was dreaming - that it was all a bad dream... there was no prophecy and no one had to come to any harm because of me. There was so drama.
If only I was dreaming...
"We're here madam. ", another flight attendant gave me a fake and practiced smile.
I nodded and got out of the Plane. The airport here was huge. It took me a while to get through customs but nice I was free I booked into a hotel.
I knew this would be my life from now on. It hurt so much to know that I turned my back on Xander - I did it out of love... I couldn be selfish and have him knowing that I would cause his death - I couldn't live myself if that was the case.
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Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months and months turned into years. I was travelling all over the globe and repeated my lonely cycle.
Leave - stay - leave - stay.
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Grace and I hardly spoke about Xander and Blaze. It hurt to much.
I was currently in Sweden. In a huge city with many busy people. Tall buildings towered over me.
Xander never stopped trying to reach me through the mindlink. I felt his fight against the barrier I put up every second of very day.
I had bought a small apartment here in Sweden and I've even gotten a job as a secretary. I was extremely quiet and I didn't mingle with anyone.
It's been 3 years and a half since I've left Xander... at odd times of the day I found myself staring into nothing and just remembering the past.
I was lost without him- an empty shell of a person with no soul. Some nights I would cry myself to sleep - some nights I'd sleep as if nothing was bothering me and some nights - oh some nights I felt his absence - that was the worse. I'd lay awake the entire night and pray for him to be safe and happy... I'd pray with all my heart that he was still full of hope and ok... the guilt of leaving him weighed me down everyday. I could still remember the way he looked at me when I left - his eyes were full of pain... he knew deep down that I had to leave.
Not a day went by that I didn't think of him- not a single day went by that I didn't miss him. I love him with all my heart and I will continue to do so till I take my last breath on this earth.
My once bright green eyes were now dull and I looked like I had seen better days. I. hardly ever ate but when I did, I would nibble on some fruit. Grace and I only had each other... Sure, the people at work spoke to me occasionally but I knew that I could never befriend them because I was destined to leave...
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The Rise of The Royal Rogue
Werewolf"She was running and he was hunting. She was hiding and he was conquering. She was a spirit full of of fire and would he stop at noting to put out the flames." After finding out that Alpha King Xander is her mate, Rebbeca Bluewood will stop at nothi...
