The Rise of The Royal Rogue

Bad ideas and cruel intentions.

I was afraid of going back with him - going back to face Liam and Storm... their baby must have been around two years old by now... Would Storm and Liam jump into my arms happily or would they scowl and me and discard me for leaving. 'We were fine without you - why did you have to come back and complicate everything? 'or 'I missed you - I couldn't live without you. '
How would people react? How would I react? What happened to Kiara after I left? What did Alphas say after the commotion? My mind was buzzing with unanswered questions.

Why was everything so complicated? I didn't think things would get so messy. My feelings just contradict each other making it difficult to make a decision.

If I go now - how long until Xander falls? How could he sleep knowing that the person next to him will cause his death.

"The king will fall at the cost of the queen..." Nirvana's voice echoed through my mind as I replayed the commotion at coronation.

I heard Xander take a deep breath. My back faced him and he had his hands around my waist.

It seemed that I wasn't the only one who couldn't sleep... I wasn't the only one with a mind a mess.

"Xander, Are you awake? ", I waited for a reply.

"I am. "

"Are you thinking about the same thing that I am thinking about? ", I asked nervously. I have forgotten how to speak around him.

Somethings have changed but the love we have for each other only grew - I could feel it.

"The prophecy - I'm not going to die. If we can prevent one thing from happening we can find a loophole. We just need to find Jacob. I am so close -", he said softly. His hot breath fanned the back of my neck. I missed this - laying next to him and figuring out our lives together.

"What if we don't find him? ", I always over thought things.

There it is again - a life full of what ifs and maybes.

"We have to... it's our only shot. ", he took a deep breath and I turned around so that I was facing him.

His blue eyes lit up as he saw my forest green eyes.

"I never gave up on you - on us.I kept believing that if I wished hard enough I'd find you or you'd come back - but you never did. ", he studied my face for any sign of remorse.

I frowned and held back tears. I brought my hand to his face and began to trace the outline if his nose and lips.My fingers trailed along his jawline and he moved into my touch.

"I didn't want to cause your downfall. I love you to much to allow myself to destroy you. ", I whispered.

He suddenly held my hand as if I burnt him.

His eyes softened and he brought my palm to his heart.

I could feel his heart beating slowly.

"I managed to live all these years thinking that if I let my heart stop - it would be an injustice to you, I held onto you - the ghost of you. I am a mess without you. "

"I -I-", I was lost for words.

He gave me a weak smile.

I knew my absence would cause him a lot of pain.

"I though you'd hate me for leaving. ", I said softly while I stared at his eyes.

"Anybody can hate - it's easier to but to love someone - to love someone takes strength and courage. You are my greatest strength and my greatest weakness - I need you. ", he said possesively.

"I love you Xander Hale. I do, I really do. I couldn't live without you - I was in so much of pain without you. I missed you and I couldn't help but think this is all my fault - I caused this - I hurt you but I did it out of love - I couldn't stay with you knowing I would call you all this suffering-",I was pouring my heart out and he held me. He stuck my broken pieces back together.

"Come back with me tomorrow. ", It sounded like a command.

I nodded slowly.

He said he can find a loophole - I pray he does because I wouldn't be able to live with myself if any thing happened to him.

Silly rabbit, it's not wise to play in a wolves territory, Didn't you know, the wolf might snatch you up or worse - he might fall in love with your beauty. ~ I suddenly thought.

If there's one thing that I knew, being around Xander slowed down time - it was just him and I against the world when we were together... but I knew, tomorrow would be here faster than I could possibly imagine. Tomorrow would bring with itself an entanglement of gifts.

I knew that going back with him was a bad idea but my heart would have none of it. It wanted to be with it's lover. Who was I to get in the way of love? So I fell...further down the rabbit hole trying to keep my head.

"Xander, are you sure you want to do this?", he was betting his life on the table.

He didn't reply for a few seconds. He was thinking about this.

"I'm not - but I love you and that's enough for me to know that I want to spend my life with you. "

We were walking on eggshells around this sudden transition, he knew and so did I. Fate had other plans for us.

"Do you think the universe fights for souls to be together? some things are too strange and too strong to just be a coincidence. "~ Xander's voice rang through my head.

It does - oh it does, my love! Fate made it so that after all these years I went out of my pity bubble and into the real world.Fate made it so that Xander was in Sweden today.