The Rise of The Royal Rogue

confessions

As soon as the meeting was over I left. I didn't want to stay in that office with Xander. I needed to calm down before I faced him.

"I'm sure he had his reasons. "- Grace said.

"What? He loves me and wants to protect me? No! no! People's lives are at risk because of me and he didn't want to tell me? Jacob is only waging war on Xander because of me. He killed my parents and now he wants to kill me. I told you I want justice for my parents but it's spiralled out of control. Jacob is willing to kill innocent people just to have a go at me. Xander hid it from me... "

"He has his reasons Rebecca! "

"No Grace. He just wants to shield me from the world because I'm his mate. He doesn't take me seriously... to him I'm just a delicate flower who can't take care of herself - well I can. Jacob is kicking himself because he thought he won when he killed my parents... now he's head is wanted all over the world."

"You're not seeing the bigger picture. Think rationally! "- This was the first time Grace and I argued.

"He didn't tell me because he doesn't trust me? or did he not tell me because he thinks I'll become an emotional mess? Which is it? Look Grace, people will die and my pack is at war and no one cared to tell me. I pass by people everyday who are willing to lay down their lives for me. I'm Xander's mate - forget being his queen, I am his mate. He's supposed to tell about the war at the very least. I was so busy laying in a bed of flowers and planning a wedding while Xander and the rest of the pack dealt with war and death... I feel horrible that while they were stressing I was choosing between chocolate and vanilla sponge cakes! "

"Go and talk to him then. You have to. I'm sure he had reasons. "

I cut of the mind link and when to gym. When I was angry I liked to box it out. I let out all my frustrations on the punching bag. Jacob has really messed things up.I hate what he has done to my life.He took away my parents and now he's trying to take away my mate.

I thought back to the prophecy...did Xander not want to tell me because he thinks that the prophecy was going to be fulfilled ? After spending an hour kicking and punching I decided to head home and confront Xander.

I entered the room and Xander was not in it.I went to shower and when I came out he was still was not back.I changed into a jeans and a blue off-the-shoulder shirt.I was opening the door when it was jammed by something- Someone was trying to come in while I was going out.It was Xander.I jiggled the doorknob when he did the same.I groaned mentally.

I stepped away from the door and he came inside.

He looked worried.His hair was a mess because he ran his hands through it several times.

"Rebecca- I can explain, Please just hear me out.", he looked up at me ,his eyes silently pleading for a chance.

I sat on the edge of the bed while he stood against the wall.I couldn't speak or move...I wanted to hear him out without distracting myself.

"I was afraid ."

"Afraid?", I stood up and took a step towards him.

"I know you Rebecca, you'll think about the prophecy and the lives at risk- my life and you will blame yourself for the war if I told you. I was afraid that you will leave again to prevent this.We have to face him soon or later."

He was right...I was thinking like that.Grace was right, he had his reasons... but that still doesn't give him the right to hide such an important detail away from me.

"I can not loose you, not again at least.",He fiddled with his thumbs.His eyes held remorse and truth in them.

"I just got you back ..."

"I was not going to leave again Xander...Yes, I was blaming myself and thinking about the prophecy but I was not leaving. I was just hurt that you did not tell me...I was left in the dark.Jacob is my problem,he is here for me - I feel responsible for everything.If something has to happen because of me - if something has to happen to you because of me - I- I- "

He walked to me and cupped my cheeks in his hands.

"You are my mate. We share each others burdens , you need the pack's help and they will protect you- you are their Luna ...I am not going anywhere, when war comes and we all know it will, I will come back home to you - I have to complete my picture perfect life with you.", he rested his forehead agaisnt mine. At this time of worry he managed to make me smile...picture perfect life.

"Don't blame yourself. Jacob is an angry man who just wants to feel important, he had it all at one stage and now that you learnt the truth and want justice, he has realized that he has lost...He has not only threatened you but the crown as well.This is not only your fight, it is everyone's."

He hugged me tightly and I took a deep breath. I pray that this war is avoided and that we find Jacob before he attacks us. He has sided with rogues which means his numbers have increased. Xander's warm chest provided comfort and I snuggled closer to him. Maybe a wedding in the midst of all this was not such a bad thing, it will provide hope in these dark days that are coming before us, A storm was coming and we all had to be ready.