Secrecy from the Fans - Luke Brooks

Bowling Time

A/N: Thank you guys for your comments. I have read all of them and I am going to try out the suggestions on the next few chapters to see which ones I like. Hope you like this chapter. 

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This is my first time going bowling with such a large group and I have to say I'm pretty excited. I don't know if I'll be bowling because I am still not very good but there might be some hope. The bowling alley we went to was huge but inside it reminded me of the one back home that my friends and I usually went to. We all walked in and started to mingle as we got our bowling balls and our rental shoes. "Thank you" I say as the person hands me my rental shoes and I return to the others.

"So Mia, how good of a bowler are you?" Caspar ask while wiggling his eyebrows getting a few giggles. "Not too bad if I do say so myself" she says while blowing on her nails and wiping it on her shirt "Ha then I'll have no problem showing my superior skills and beat everyone here" Caspar yells and points to everyone "As long as you don't send the ball flying like last time" Troye said walking past him and setting up the board. Everyone busted out laughing and Caspar sat back down in his seat trying to hide his face.

"Aww don't worry Caspar" I say as I start rubbing his back trying not to laugh "I'm not that good of a bowler either" I whisper to him and her perks up a little bit. "She's not lying. I remember one time Rachel someone managed to hit someone in their stomach while trying to hit the pins." I turned and looked at Mia in shock

"MIA!!" I yelled as I saw Joe grab his stomach while laughing really hard and she shrugged her shoulders and finished tying her laces. "Maybe you and Caspar can share a lane with the gutter guards up" Marcus joked and I just glared at him while he continued laughing. "Don't worry about it Rach, we all still love you" Joe said trying to cheer me up and I have him a quick kiss before I got up to pick my ball. I have learned from my experience and I now get the lightest ball possible they have.

"I thought you weren't going to bowl" Mia said walking up behind me and looking for a ball for herself "I wasn't planning on it but you never know so this is for just in case." I say as I follow her back to the seat and place out balls in the machine that will bring it back "Ok just don't hit anybody this time" she jokes "I'll try not to but don't tempt me" I reply as I walk back and sit in Joe's awaiting arms.

As the games started, I decided to sit the first one out because I still can't bowl all the well, as Mia pointed out, and I decided to walk around and explore the place to see what other games they have. "Wow they have some really old arcade games" I say to myself as I look around the arcade and run my hands over the air hockey table. I let out a loud sigh as the memories start to come back of the times I went to the mall with the boys and we would play games in the arcade for a while before every video to get them pumped up. "Brings back a lot of memories" I say shaking my head and moving on.

As I was exploring the rest of the place I looked up when I heard some people start to get really loud and my eyes widened when I saw the reason for the noise, the Janoskians, and what looked like a little entourage of fans. Luke's eyes met mine and widened and I got a glimpse of his bruised face courtesy of Joe but before he reached me I quickly made my way back to my group and placed myself right in the middle of everyone so I would be hard to get to.

'Ok don't panic Rach' I thought to myself as I tried to steady my breathing. 'Keep calm and no one will notice that your ex is...playing a game of bowling in the next lane' I realized as I look to my left and they were right there. I mentally slapped myself for not thinking of a better plan to keep space between us. All of a sudden I realized that Mia was gone but my thoughts were distracted when I felt someone wrap their arms around my waist. I looked up to see it was Joe and I could feel his muscles tensing, he must have seen Luke next to us. "I need some air" I say as I wiggle out of Joe's arm and heading towards the front door.

I felt someone grab my wrist and pull me into a nearby room. I started to get really freaked out because I don't want to be on one of those shows where people go missing. The light was turned on and I found myself staring into those beautiful brown eyes that left me some time ago. 'I was wrong, I'm not ready to talk to him about what happened or at all.' I started to panic again.

"Luke what are yo-" I was interrupted when he kissed me. Even more shocking is that I started to kiss him back but this was different than the times before. This time it was more desperate and needy by both of us. I slowly pulled away and my eyes fluttered open and I was at a loss for words about what just happened, I mean I don't even know how I feel about Luke anymore and yet my heart won't slow down. Why does he do this to me? "Luke I can't do this rig-" I start to say and look away from him "Rachel I am sorry" he said cutting me off again.

"You're sorry? Luke...just no." I say throwing up my hands and reaching for the door before he stopped me yet again. "Rachel can you please just talk to me?" he pleaded and that's when I snapped. All the anger I thought I got over came right back to me and I decided not to hold back.

"You want to talk Luke? Now after all this time? My number hasn't changed so why didn't you call me to talk about it and work it out? Why have I not heard from you until now, in this moment? Why did you cut me out of your life like I never mattered? Luke do you know how bad you broke me? You broke my heart and I hated you. I've been so mad and hated you for the longest time and then I started to hate myself because I fell for you and I had no reason or idea why we ended and most of all because..." I stopped for a second trying to hold back the tears.

He took my hand in his "Because?" he asked encouraging me to continue "Because no matter what I did and what I tried I couldn't stopped loving you. I still do and I might always love you." I finally admitted. It sounds so real when I say it out loud.

Luke's face drops and I figure that I've made it this far already so I might as well let it all completely out. I took a deep breath and continued "One question that has been on my mind since that FaceTime call, how did you do it?" He looks up at me confused and asks "Do what?" By now I can feel the hot tears rolling down my face "You were the first guy I have loved and I thought you felt the same way about me but you just left me like I was nothing. My heart used to flutter every time I got something as simple as a text message from you or heard your voice. Everyone kept telling me that I was head over heels in love with you and it seems like yesterday everything was fine but it all came crashing down so fast. I thought we could still keep it going even with you oversees but after that FaceTime call I..."

I stopped talking as the memories of how I felt days after what happened started to come back. I felt abandoned, empty, devastated, insecure, and so many other things. I don't want to go back to that place. After a few seconds of me staying quiet Luke starts to explain himself. "Rachel I never...I was..." he lets out and aggravated growl as he struggled to get the words out. He puts his hands on my shoulder and looks me directly in my eyes before taking a deep breath and continuing

"Rach I was so afraid that while I was away that some other guy will come into your life and make you realize that you are too good for me. I didn't want to get my heart broken and I never, and I mean never, meant to hurt you or to break up with you. That FaceTime call was a mess. Yes Jai and Ariana never broke up when we moved to America but that's for a lot of different reasons. Management felt that our relationship was still fresh and that I would have a hard time focusing like Jai did when he first started dating Ari. Even after we moved I never felt like we actually broke up but I am sorry that I never told you the situation with Jai and Ariana. Rachel you have to know that I love you and there is no other girl in the world more important to me than you. Well besides mum. And Nonna but other than them no one else." I giggle as he started to get off topic and I calmed down. "Maybe Lala but she's a slut"

I cut him off to get back to the issue at hand "Luke I-I just don't know if I can risk it happening again..."