Disillusionment - Matthew Daddario

T h i r t y O n e

Matthew,

Acceptance.

You probably think I'm not moving forward, as I keep nagging and going on about all the different ways your actions and betrayal affected me.

But I am. These words I scrawl day after day? They are my acceptance as I come to terms with everything.

When I saw my therapist today, she told me something straight up. It was all true too.

She said I've got a bad habit of caring too much and treating people better than they do me; this being why it hurts so much when I see their true colours.

She asked me what I missed the most but wasn't expecting the answer I gave her.

I miss myself. You know, the me I was before I got my first heartbreak, my first betrayal and loss from a person I trusted.

Why was she so surprised you ask?

Well its because she expected me to say you.

From Ivy.