The Queen of Stars

Chapter 12

I wipe my sweaty hands on my sun dress. My breathing was irregular and i felt nerves sweep through my body, possessing me. 

I haven't made many friends before and the thought of me walking through Lycan territory is kinda nerve racking. Well just kinda meeting Lycans in general. They can be kinda scary. 

Im walking down the street my hands clenched in a fist as i try to locate the shops. I haven't been able to get anything or take anything with me. So all i have been wearing are clothes from a stash of female clothes that my Godfather keeps at his house. I really don't want to know why he has a stash of female clothes at his house. 

So i have been wearing the strangest selection of clothing through the past month or so. 

There were whispers flying through the air from the houses nearby. I could feel peoples gazes around me and i took a deep breath. I felt strange, i'm not usually this nervous. Im a confident person, i'm proud of who I am. 

I may be powerful but under all these other gazes i feel small, unimportant. Im werewolf amongst Lycans. I shake my head slightly. 

No.No. No. 

This isn't me. Their powerful gazes should have no effect on me. I lift my head high and continue my way into town. My hands slowly unclasp and i started to relax more. I wasn't allowed to get out very much back home so this was a nice change. 

Eventually i ended up at the center of town and at a cute boutique which seemed to be close to the palace. It had a wide range of clothes from comfortable to formal. All their clothes looked amazing and were totally my style. I sigh in happiness. I love clothes and i cherished the rare moments when i got to shop for them back home. My parents mostly go get them for me themselves. 

I walked across the rows of clothing feeling each fabric and grabbing the ones i like most. With each pile of clothing i collect my smile seems to get taller and taller, i start to feel giddy and very much like a small child. 

" Oooo a Werewolf?! How can I help you Darling?" I heard a tinkly voice. I turned around to see a girl who had to be about my age with brown way hair that came just pass her shoulders, with a mixture of green, blue and gold eyes. She was beautiful, as are most Lycans but she was definitely up there with the most beautiful people i had ever seen. She also looked familiar, those eyes....

" Im Lucia!" She said with a smile. I returned her genuine smile with one of my own. 

" Ugh i so glad there is a werewolf here. This island is as boring as hell and its nice to see a new face. Cause you know what they say, new face equals new drama ." She waggled her eyes brows and i laughed at her. 

" Im... Sass." I tell her in between my bursts of giggles. I manage to get them under control before I say. " Im staying here with my God father for a while due to some... dramatic circumstances." 

"Dramatic Circumstances?" Lucia questioned raising an eyebrow. " That sounds like a conversation to have over lunch. I get out of here in ten, you wanna come?" 

" Uh that sounds great."

Lucia starts to chat about all the great places to eat in town while she spanned all of my clothes and placed them in bags. I laughed and smiled along side her. she was an easy person to get along with and chatter box like me. Something about her seemed familiar. I put it down to how much she reminded me of Titus and my Lycan. She told me the price and My jaw dropped and my eyes widened, I may be a princess but i know the value of money and that price was super high. 

My parents worked their way up from nothing to where they are now, they learnt so much before they claimed what their families wanted them to have. They knew it was important that i knew the value of things and how lucky i am to live the life i live. I guess my old pack also taught me that.

I felt super guilty as i swiped my god fathers shiny credit card. Lucia arched her eyebrows at me and i completed the task of paying for all the new clothes. Arthur did say i could buy anything and as much as i liked but i didn't like spending other peoples money even if my godfather was like a second father to me. 

Lucia cracked me a huge smile as we continued to chat about anything and everything. She told me that we could come back and pick up on our way back. I nod my head. 

In a flash she's right next to me hooking her arm in mine. 

" lets be off shall we." She said in a cheery voice. 

We walked down the street and i watched as Lucia chatted my ear off, i watched as the beautiful buildings passed by me. They resembled the same style of the palace. Old fashioned but with a modern twist. It seemed that this whole Island was completely co-ordinated style wise it made my inner style lover squeal with joy. 

Its been a long time since i was really myself. Like really really myself. Ever since what happened with that pack all i've been is quite, distant. My wolf is still silent so it already feels like a part of me is missing. 

Its the little things that make me feel whole again, Me again. Lucia is someone i get along well with. One of those people i could talk to for hours non stop. Its nice to feel someone parts of myself returning back to normal. I refuse to believe they have turned me into a robot of nothing, that they have changed who i am. 

I perch myself on a table outside while Lucia goes and hunts down some drinks and a menu. 

The sun is betting down on my back a nice change from the windy wether that has been upon the land of the wolf the past month or so. The air was warm, not uncomfortably hot or cold. It made wearing a white sundress a lot more appropriate. 

I turn back to the little cute cafe that Lucia had brung me to. It was old fashioned and rustic with its white worn down tables and the cute little vases of flowers in the middle of the table, the flowers colours popping out in the slick colour scheme of the cafe itself. 

I wish i had a camera to take a picture, something else i may need to ask my Uncle for. I had a camera back at home, i use it all the time. Home. Back where my parents , Siblings and friends are. Back where I had love and everything anybody could wish for. But yet my heart seems to be wandering. Back home is where i was held captive for my own protection, where i was considered fragile. Back home where reminds are of a life that i no longer feel like living. 

Is here my home? No, but it could be. At the moment i'm a werewolf, an outsider. But i can make friends, get a job and create a life here. I can find love with a rejected Lycan, we can mend each others hearts. So, Am I dismissing my princess duties? Yes. 

My parents never wanted the life of royalty and neither do I. They are normal, sane. But i can see what being royal does to you. I don't want to be like that, crazy, cold and cruel. I want to be normal, me. Full of life and love me. The person who i was but without those who held me down and kept me hidden. 

This disguise may as well stay on forever.

So maybe this is where i can start over.