The Queen of Stars

Chapter 18

Adora- Yours

She said it so softly that i almost didnt hear her. 

Me- Adora? Your back?

Adora- Obviously

I could almost feel her rolling her silver eyes. 

Me- Where have you been? 

It takes her a while to answer, but when she finally does all she says is; 

Adora- Reconnecting. 

Me- What do you mean! Adora? ADORA! 

But she didn't answer, at least i could feel in the back of my mine. 

" This is Sass, she's a werewolf staying with an ancestor of hers." 

I shot Lucia a glare for speaking for me, even if it took me a while to gather up the courage to open my mouth. The Man just snorted. 

" Why hello Sister, can the girl not speak for herself?" 

Wait Sister!? But he's a Prince! Which would make her a... Princess. Of course she knew who I was, doesn't everyone? But like Ava once told me, I'm like a Myth to everyone. Only certain people has ever seen what I look like. But one of them had to of been Lucia and of course my Lycan, Lucian- The crowned prince of freaking Lycans.

But this just made everything so much more confusing. I have a mate. Yet the way I feel about Lucian, the attraction is a billion times stronger than the bond between me and the dirty Alpha ever was. It wasn't possible that he was my mate. So I refuse to believe it. 

But the hurt in my heart that I felt when that bitch Leah is draped all over him like a slut is... terrible beyond comprehension. 

Argh! He's messing with my head and I don't like it. 

I watch as he reaches down and clasps my hand in his bringing it to his lips. The sparks that thundered through my hand sent shivers down my spine and i felt absolute bliss just with a single touch. Then when his lips touched my hand. Oh! I nearly fainted. My hand seemed to tingle in the spot where he had placed a small kiss. 

" I'm really sorry but could i please  be excused." I gave the confused prince a small nod. I shot a death glare at Leah who just smirked at me. I gave Lucia a small smile as she squeezed my hand when she passed. 

I felt sick. And whats even more confusing is that i wondered if i was going to puke or i was just love sick. A love sick fool that what i've turned into. One of those people who seem to fall in love within moments of meeting their beloved. I had always felt that it was such a magical thing but it just confusing, it makes you feel out of sorts- strange in a way. Its not normal. But is it even love? 

My footsteps bring me to what looks to be a bathroom. I lock myself inside and then lead my hands against the basin taking a few deep breaths. 

No. It couldn't be love. Im too uncertain, plus i don't even know him. 

Love. Love? What even is Love? Its not like i've ever been in love before, Ugh. Here he goes messing with my head again. Everybody keeps speaking in riddles and now this! I splash some cold water on my face. 

Nope nope nope. A new start. That is what I promised myself. A new start as Sass, now all those memories are coming back and I want them to stop. I need answers before i let another word of my old life slip. 

I have a plan. This time i'm sticking to it and its going to work. 

 Biting my lip i glance at my appearance. I looked gorgeous tonight, Lucia had done a fabulous job. My silver eyes were outlines by the soft yet defining colours of my makeup and the bright red lipstick. My dress flowed around my curves perfectly and made my skin look slightly darker. 

On my wrist i had a small blue beaded bracelet that Lucia had as well to symbolise our friendship, a friendship bracelet really. My hand... oh. I could still feel his lips on my hand even if that moment has passed. I wonder what his lips would feel like on mine- NO! 

I refuse to give into this feeling. I no longer have a mate, I wont be a slave to love. 

also. Now so many other thing make sense. The reason why Leah is with my Lycan is because she is hoping that if he doesn't find this girl who i'm assuming is his mate, she's hoping he will marry and mark her instead. But who is he looking for? Who is his mate? A huge wave of jealousy rolls through me. But what he said to me all those years ago? Its just, strange. I always believed that my Lycan was my Mate. Considering i discovered my powers after i met him, and the way he made my heart hammer at such a young age. 

I storm out of the bathroom and back into the ball. I refuse to think about him. I need to settle down with someone not connected to the palace and NOT connected to HIM. I refuse to be a slave to love. Its something about the past year, i felt broken. The loss of my mate and even it feels like my family are a million miles away. I just feel so alone. I take a deep breath. I'm only sixteen, nearly seventeen. I have my whole life ahead of me. 

Love is confusing and love at this age is unnecessary. So i've made a choice. 

Im going to live here for a year. Maybe get a job, build a life and hopefully find the only other book of prophecies. Then after that i'm going to go and spend time with my aunt and Uncle in New Zealand. After that. Who knows. At this stage i just want a normal life, not to be tied down or labeled with some extravagant title that make people look at you and judge what they see. I don't want to be a slave to that touch, that spark that I feel when i'm with Lucian. So i'm going to ignore my feelings and hopefully everything goes as planned.

Ugh, but even i should know...

Life cannot be planned.