The Queen of Stars

Chapter 44

I'm met with a cold silence. The rest of the Castle seemed to be buzzing with activity, some people were getting settled into the guest rooms, others were being healed. However the west wing- Me and Lucians wing was left completely silent. Out of respect Lucian had told me. I had to meet with my Aunt and godfather soon, something I wasn't particularly looking forward to. As much as I just wanted to curl into bed and wish all our problems away- I couldn't.

I walked into the small kitchen and opened the fridge trying to search for something to eat and drink. My mind seemed to be thinking of everything at once. My Parents, Siblings, family, What was going to happen to the Island, what was going to happen if we don't do something, Oh my moon where on earth would we even start?

" Shhhh love." Lucians soft, soothing voice came from behind me. His strong arm wound their was around me like vines pulling we close to him. " You think too much."

I leaned into his comforting embrace, sighing. " I can't help it." I mutter sadly. He just hummed in reply, the sounds vibrated through me making me shiver. Me breath falter a little and I close me eyes, just taking in this feeling. Slowly I turn around and Look up into Lucian beautiful eyes. My eyes traced his light brown hair. His tanned skin. The place on his cheek that dimples when he smiles. I softly run my hairs softly across his broad shoulders and down his sculpted chest. He shivered lightly and a simple of pleasure and pride boomed through me. I reach other and place my right hand on his cheek as his arms pulled me tighter against him.

" I'm so sorry Lucian." I whisper into the silence. tears cloud my vision making him look fuzzy.

" What on earth do you have to be sorry for?" He whispers back, reaching out to wipe away a tear that had escaped and had started rolling down my heated cheeks.

" I think I had been angry at a lot of things for a while. The fact my parents took me to a which to remove a lot of memories and take away most of my connection to the earth probably didn't help. But I was angry and I only got angrier, at everything. It seemed I let most of it out on you, you were in the wrong place at the wrong time- which lead to too many misunderstandings. All of which I now reget so much because if I hadn't been so blinded by anger and revenge, maybe we could of had more time. Now we have only just found each other again, we haven't had enough time to just be...." I reach my hands up and tangle them in his hair pulling my face closer to them. " I wish we could have eternity to just spend together."

" You speak about our relationship as if its going to end." He says softly, but with a fierce determination behind it.

I never want this to end

I feel the though float into my mind, filling my soul. " I just wish that everything was meant to work out the way it should of. I would of met you on your 16th birthday. We would of danced..."

He started moving slowly in a circle. He grabbed one of my hands and clasped it tightly. The small gesture made me smile. he leaned down and pushed his forehead to mine, gazing into my eyes lovingly. "....Then I would of kissed you" He continues breathlessly. He leant forward and captured my lips, claiming them. His lips were soft yet possessive, pushing her to her limits. This moment was just perfect. He was holding onto me as if he was scared to let go. The fire was blazing all around me, filing our power. Until slowly it died, I ran out of breath forcing us to pull apart. Lucian pressed him forehead to mine, smiling a little. I could tell he loved that kiss as much as I did.

"Maybe in that world, everything would be different, better? I don't know. But different." He finished softly, stoking his fingertips down my cheek softly causing a lift shiver to ripple through me.

" I'm just glad this world has you and me at all. I'm just glad you never went through with whatever deal you had with Leah." I reply.

" I'm glad your other mate was a complete asshole."

" I'm glad that my godfather found me and that I finally met you."

" I'm glad that you're no longer angry at me and now we can finally focus on peace." Lucian tells me. He presses a light kiss against my forehead making me smile. " Starting with this very important meeting with your godfather and Aunt... I guess I'll have to make a good impression."

" you don't have to impress anybody. Only me, and you already do."

He laughs. " It's important that your parents accept me as your mate love, we may of had some disagreements in the past when it comes to you, however we're together now and I just need them to be okay with that."

" If they want me to be happy they would of given me to you when they promised... I use to dream about you everyday Lucian. You invade my every thought and all I ever want is to know who my little Lycan was. My parents knew that and still they sent me away on a dead mans mission."

" That didn't happen though. We have to live in the now Stella. Who knows what could happen with these rebels? You don't know how much more time you may have with them." He runs a hand through my hair in an attempt to calm me, it works.

" I just wish we had time, I want to complete the mating process with you." I smirked at him raising my eyes suggestively. Lucian stance stiffens.

" there will be plenty of time for sex." He replies, I could tell it was taking a lot of his self control to turn me down, that just made my smile bigger. " but stop getting distracted, peace remember?"

I frown and cross my arms over my chest. I really wanted to complete the mating process right here right now and so would have no problems throwing a massive fit if it meant I could just have a moment for us to just be together. Lucian shook his head at my thoughts l, chuckling. " I just want to do it right Stella, you deserve only to best experience. Afterwards you'll be tied to me for life. It's a special moment for us and I'm not going to fuck you on our kitchen bench."

I grinned. " I wouldn't mind."

He growled at me grabbing my wandering hands in his own pulling them away from his body. " Your really testing my self control love." He grits out through his teeth. " I'm not going to take your innocence so quickly. It's going to be long and beautiful and you are going to enjoy every moment."

" I can't wait." I reply smirking. He relaxes slightly laughing at my smug state. " You really are a piece of world Stella Silver."