The Queen of Stars

Chapter 28

"So what's your story?" I glance up at Seb from my latte. He had a look on his face that could only be described as fascination. His hands were woven together and were holding his face as he gazed at me. That same twinkle in his eyes again.

"Eggar arn't you? " I replied. My voice sounded brighter than usually and it felt good to laugh, to joke. Things I haven't done in... a long time.

"I am, how did you know? Are you some sort of physic? " He says cheekily with a grin to match it. I shrugged giving him a cirtan look thats says 'who knows'.

I pick up my latte and take a sip of the hot liquid, it soothes me as i think. 

" I haven't been gifted with that sort of power, sadly i'm no seer. I'm just good at reading people." 

" You know your probably the most exciting thing that has happened around here. This Island really needs some drama, its always just the same old stuff." He rolls his eyes." But you however are new exciting, different. I like it." 

I remember somebody once told me similar... that person has been staying out of my way recently which i appreciate. But i'm still hella mad at Lucia and until she apologises to me face to face i don't think i will ever forgive her. But i don't want to focus on that, on her. Just the now.

I grinned at him. " Your different too. A good different." 

He chuckled. " Why thank you. But if your not going to tell me why you were sad then can you at least tell me why your on this island? I mean its not everyday that a non Lycan gets permission to stay here. Well apart from the royals and that young werewolf who came once like ten years ago?"  

I give him a weak smile. " Well that young werewolf was me and technically i am a royal so its pretty much the same old stuff anyway." 

He gives me a stunned look. " Your the Stella Silver?" 

I nod my head amused at his giddiness. " The one and only." I mock curtsey for him and he laughs, a big hearty laugh. It reminds me of Titus and how much we would laugh together. I miss my best friend so much. Suddenly my mind flickered to Ava. 

I haven't thought about her in a while and for that i feel guilty. When it comes to her guilt is the only feeling that controls me. I don't know if she is dead or alive. If she's alive what they could possibly be doing to her. I felt so guilty that i didn't save her, its one of my biggest regrets ever. But i will go back for her. I would endure that all over again if it means i save her from that mess.

" Thank you so much." I said softly looking at Sebastian. He was the perfect package, he was no doubt attractive and had the kind of personality that pulls you in closer. He was un real. He is who i would describe as my perfect mate. But he's not my mate, Lucian is.

" What for?" 

" Making me smile. I cant remember the last time somebody made me smile and laugh." 

" Well your welcome." He reach out and grabbed my hand. He touched me and nothing. No sparks, no rush or gooey feelings. Just his soft hand in mine, a friends hand. We stay like that for a while just talking about anything. I tell him how i got here. Nothing about Lucian being my mate but how i ended up on the island. After i finished he just squeezed my hand and gave me a small smile. 

" But thats only half of it right?" 

" That is only the beginning of my story and i still have a way to go." 

" and hopefully i can be a part of it now? Im very good company and if you need anybody to make you smile..." He ginned cockily. " Im your man." 

" I know and im grateful. I really have to go though there is something i need to do." 

" Thats ok. I will catch you later." 

" Definitely." I slipped a peice of paper across the table that contained my phone number i had recently purchased. I gave him one last smile before i went and paid the bill and then headed back outside. 

It was a peaceful walk back to my hiding spot at the castle. My mind was in a constant battle. Sebastian was kind to me but i couldn't help but compare him to Lucian. All Lucian has been to me is trash, his cruel words plunge like daggers into my chest only it hurts so much more. Why am i comparing Lucian to Seb? 

Oh i am messed up. 

Seb is my friend, my very kind, very handsome friend who creates butterflies in my stomach. 

Lucian is my devil of a mate, my very harsh, very cruel mate who makes me feel like i've died and gone to heaven with one glance. 

I plonk myself down on the bed and burry my face in my hands. 

"This is the worst day of my life" I groan to myself. 

Not just today. This whole week has been hell, this whole month heck this whole year. Ive been through too much and i've tried so hard to be strong but i'm crumbling. Lucian is the last straw and Seb is my last hope. I Will be ok, i keep telling myself this trying to convince myself. Ive had so much alone time but i've just ben brooding over everything. I hadn't tried to try cheer myself up. Maybe thats why its been so hard to stay strong. But i just cant help thinking....

Where did it all go wrong? 

My thoughts are cut off by a ringing sound coming from my pocket. Confused i pull my phone out of my pocket, who would have my number? Well accept Seb and my brothers. I have been reluctant to give my number to anybody considering how angry i am at everybody i love because most of them betrayed me. 

It was an unknown number. Hesitantly i pick up the phone. 

" Hello?" I tried to make my voice sound strong and confident but it came out in some sort of squeak. 

" Stella! Oh god i've been so worried." 

My whoel body stiffens. No it cant be.

The person who has kept me suffocated and hidden my whole life never letting me see what the real world was like. She called it protecting but it was depriving me of my life. She didn't want people to come after me, she was scared and so she hid me away making my father place millions of different skins on me making me hid behind a curtain. She worries about me too much and what will happen and....

 i'm scared that the same thing will happen with my siblings. 

The person who i have looked up to the most in my life. She's kind caring and one of the most amazing people i know. She cares about others way more than herself and it end up hurting me.I missed out on so much and even though i love her so much and she's family, even though i know why she did it. It does not make it ok 

She sent me away from home which led to what happened at that stupid pack, to my mate then my god father, to everything that happened with Lucian. 

She dictated my life for long and i'm just sick of it. Im sick of everybody trying to dictate my life.  

Before i wondered where everything went wrong. Well now i know it was her paranoid choice to send me away. 

She did so many unforgivable things. 

She is also on of the people i loved and trusted most. 

The person who broke my trust the most. 

 " Mum."