"What am I going to do..." I whine. I was lying on the kitchen island my head dangling over the side, i thought it may help me get a different perspective but all its really giving me is a headache. An idea simmering at the back of my mind. I think about what would happen if i just leave, a feeling creeps into me, its black and slimy and makes me feel like hurling. Nope, no way I cant leave now. But, why not?
Because...because.... Lucian.
A small smile creeps is way onto my mouth. I couldn't leave Lucian, moon godess help me. The idea of leaving him felt like i was to shatter. Maybe it is best I leave, the more time i spend with him the harder it is to turn away and pull the curtain across to hide away what i feel for him. No.
My mind is drifting. I sigh and pull myself up right. I need to stop overthinking and complicating everything. Maybe i should just blame Lucian, my life was never this complicated till he showed up.
The kitchen had seem to become another safe haven for me at the castle. It reminded me of home. My mum loves to cook and bake and always encouraged us to, so our house would usually end up smelling like freshly baked bread, cookies and pastries a lots of the time. Sometime i would come home from training to smell a mixture of familiar spices from dinner on the stove. So being in the kitchen brought me back to those moments. Often the castle felt like such a big, cold, un familiar almost deadly place, it just wasn't home to me yet. It was nice to have somewhere to go that reminded me of my home, family and friends.
Most of the staff were asleep my now though. It was late at night and i was waiting for my aunt to arrive and do all the things she's been telling me to do, but i just needed a break. Plus i swear most of them would be asleep. I know for a fact Leah has returned to her apartment near the docks, the only entrance to the land of the Lycans, for somebody who is suppose to be keeping track of who comes in here and who leaves like a fucking hawk, she seems to have an awful lot of free time.
I hope off the island and walk over towards one of the benches and pick up an apple, biting into it I sigh. Why couldn't life just be simple? Why couldn't I just be a normal girl, who doesn't have all this shit to deal with.
I started heading towards the exit.
I can't wait for Aunt Gabby any longer, i need my bed. I am way too tired to be thinking about anything, especially the topic of Lucian.
I yawned rubbing my eyes as i walked into what i thought was the doorway, but instead turned out to be a tall very well built wall. Confused i open my eyes slowly bringing my hands down.
" Lucian." I acknowledge only the man trapped behind those golden eyes. I didn't like this, one bit. I felt uneasy, nervous. My gut wanted me to run, to having nothing to do with the King that stood before me. But there was nowhere to run and he would never hurt me, hopefully. My wolf was yapping away in my head, causing a serious headache.
"Mate." He growled. Oh shoot what have i done now. " You are to call me mate."
I sigh running my fingers through my hair. " What do you want Lucian?"
Those golden eyes were suddenly glaring at me and a hand was trailing down from my shoulder towards my wrist.
" Sometimes it feels like you don't want me around mate." his voice was low and husky... really seductive. It made my mouth feel dry and throat feel dead, but every other part of me felt very much alive. His wondering hand stopped at my wrist, capturing it and bringing it to his lips. My mind went fuzzy.
I pulled my hand away fast and took one giant step back. " I want Lucian back-"
"He hurt our mate." the beast snapped. " He's not coming back."
" Look i get that and to be honest sometimes i wonder what it would be like if he did. Would he just go back to Leah and act like i never existed. He hurt me badly sure, but we still have our connection our bond. The one that mades me feel like on cloud nine just when we touch. But he probably wants nothing to do with me. " I turn away so that those golden eyes don't see my tears. " I mean he isn't even fighting you. He doesn't want to come back. He doesn't want me the way that... well i imagined my mate would."
I turned looking back into those gold eyes only to see them flickering, the colour had faded back to the normal blue green...
" Lucian." I breath. His stance was tense and his facial expression was filled with conflict. His eyes were hard the gold trying to swallow him up.
" Don't think that I wont fight for you, that i'm not fighting every single day to come back and make things right." He took a deep breath that beautiful blue fading away from me. I ran forward trying to hold onto some part of him. He reached out and lay a hand on my cheek.
" My little star...."
Then he was gone.
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Hello Everybody!
Oh my gosh!
How long has it been since i updated? Wayyyyy tooooo long.
Well Merry Christmas, happy new year, happy valentines day... Am i forgetting any other holidays i've missed?
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The Queen of Stars
Werewolf" Your worse. Your worse than him because i never ever believed that you were capable of hurting me physically and you did, that is more unforgivable than everything that he ever did to me." Stella Silver Kind, selfless, brave, gentle and so so inn...
