Loss and Love

Chapter Ten

"Stop doing this Liz, you're hurting the poor guy. It's not like he didn't do anything. He caused the damaged, he fixed it, he said sorry. What more do you want him to do?"

All the girls have gathered in Ann and I dorm room. It's Tuesday evening and we have none of us have classes. They were giving me the lecture of my life. I was laying on my bed playing with my phone screen because I was doing absolutely nothing on it. Lydia cut my attention by swapping my phone away from my hand.

"Hey!" I finally got up and sat down facing them on Ann's bed.

"You're not listening to us." She told me placing my phone behind her.

"I am!" I told her, because truthfully, I've heard every word but, chose to ignore them.

"Really? What was the last thing I said ? She asked.

"You're not listening to us."  I laughed after saying the very last thing she said in a teasing tone trying to annoy her.

"It's not funny Liz. You got to talk to him. You haven't spoken to him for the past two days. Actually three because today counts." Tracy said doing the math on her finger.

"So what do you want me to do to. Just walk up to him and say hey I forgive and am sorry for everything I said. Is that it?"

"Why are you making this such a big deal? The guy told you he love you. What more should he say?"

"You know what I think girls?" Lydia asked sharing her gaze between Tracy and Ann.

"Okay smarty, what do you think?" I might sound sarcastic but Lydia is pretty damn smart, so she figuring me out would be easy as obvious as I am.

"She likes him, and she's afraid he might hurt her after all the girls he been with on this campus. She thinks by forgiving him, she would be letting him in her life and her pants."

She damn right hit the nail well.

"So Liz tell us, is Lydia right?" Tracy asked me.

I nodded. " There's something I've never told you girls before."

They all looked at me, waiting to hear what I have to say. " Okay.... Shoot." Curious Ann can't wait.

"I'm a virgin."

"I knew it!! That's why you was avoiding sleeping with Jeremy. Because you were waiting for Mr. Right. And you don't think Chris is right for you. It all makes sense now."

"Girl, if I was not with Ralph and I was still a virgin, I won't think twice bout giving him my V-card. I'm just kidding. I can't do that to you."  Tracy said in a humorous way.

"So what now?" Ann asked me.

"What?"

"You're going to talk to him?

"Maybe." I said shrugging.

"You have to you can't avoid him forever. The guy probably gonna die."

"Stop being ridiculous." My phone began to ring. Lydia quickly pick it  up and look at the caller.

"It's Chris." She give the phone to me and I took it.

"Hurry up and answer." I quickly answer and put the phone to my ear.

"Liz?" Chris voice sounded at the other end of the line. "Is it really you?"

"Yes it's me."

"You're still mad at me, aren't you?" He asked sounding disappointed. Yesterday he tried talking to me in the cafeteria and I didn't let him. Sunday he called like ninety times I didn't answer. He probably thinks I've forgiven him since I answer the phone, not that I already haven't forgiven him within myself.