I cant see past this moment, I cant see my self past this moment past the now. And oh how much that scares me. Its as if my body just knows I wont make it that far. I try to trick myself into hoping for the future with promises of travel and this hopeless bucket list of things that I want to do. But it isnt enough, I cant see myself falling in love anymore, I cant see myself having kids I cant see myself living in the house I have dreamt up of I cant see me myself survivng until the future, all these empty promises that tomorrow will be better all the hopeless quotes trying to force myself to live and survive until the next day but will I even make it that far. I don't see a future for me I don't see myself being alove to make it there and no matter how hard I try and no matter how much I know I want to be alive and happy and no matter how much I know that I just want to exist and I want to get better and I want that happy life I just cannot see myself living to then, I just cant see myself making it to that point in time.
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The Darkness in my Mind
Short StoryThere is a little bit of darkness within everyone, a darkness that we are afraid to reveal to the world. But there is comfort in knowing that others suffer from the same darkness. So I am revealing my darkness to the world.
