I'm scared, I don't ever like admitting things to myself and I guess I thought that if I just never properly acknowledge it then it'll go away. But it doesn't go away and I can't hide away forever. The truth is that I am really scared, I'm scared that it'll never end, that I'll always be miserable and empty, Im scared that I'll always disappoint people that matter to me, I'm scared that I'll never be able to love anyone or be close to anyone, I'm scared that I'll never be able to kick the label, I'm scared that I'll continue to self-sabotage and self-destruct. I am just so scared of how it's going to turn out, scared of what is going to happen to me if I continue on. Death is easy, it's certain, there's no fear of any bad happening but their is no good that can happen. If I kill myself I'll be completely taking away any chance of happiness, I'll be taking away any possibility of getting better. And I so badly want to be okay, I want to be happy, I want to be in love, I want to travel, I want to be successful, I want to be okay.
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The Darkness in my Mind
Short StoryThere is a little bit of darkness within everyone, a darkness that we are afraid to reveal to the world. But there is comfort in knowing that others suffer from the same darkness. So I am revealing my darkness to the world.
