The Darkness in my Mind

64.

I've accepted it. I am not a good person. I am broken.

9 kinds of fucked up.

I don't deserve it, what it is you are giving me.

I'm darkness, a cloud that won't leave.

You shouldn't be around me.

No one should. I would tear you down.

I don't mean to but it's inevitable.

I am no good.

I can help you and I can give but I can't accept.

Don't try to give because I am toxic.

I need validation, I need love but I don't know how to accept it.

I can only have destruction and pain, it's what I feel I deserve.

I am destruction, it follows me everywhere.

You are better off alone, with someone who can be good to you.

I am not good, I take and I tear down.

I am pain and heartbreak, I am toxic and selfish.

I don't deserve goodness. I hate myself and

Disgust

That is what I feel towards myself.

Disgust,

At the horror I am

And

The twisted person I've became.

Don't fall into this hole with me.

If it is the last I can do

I will make sure that you are loved

And happy

With someone that deserves you

Because where I am now

Who I am now

Does not deserve this love

This kindness

That I need

I do not deserve.