You say that you want me and that makes me feel...
Happy
Sad
Disgusted
Slutty
Needed
Validated
Do you see the problem?
I feel everything at once and it tears me apart
I need to tear my skin apart
To get some peace from the turmoil
I feel like I matter
But then I realize that it is my body
So I feel like dirt,
Like an object
I just don't know what to do
I feel so torn
And I want to tear my skin apart
To punish myself
For what?
I don't know, all I know is that I need
Punishment
Do you see what is happening to me?
I so desperately need love
I need closeness
I need love
But I can never accept it.
Do you see what is happening?
I'm torn
My skin is torn apart
I don't feel at peace
I keep tearing to try and stop feeling so torn
Do you see what is happening?
Because I don't
And that I why I keep tearing until there is nothing left to tear
Until I don't feel torn
Until I don't feel anything
YOU ARE READING
The Darkness in my Mind
Short StoryThere is a little bit of darkness within everyone, a darkness that we are afraid to reveal to the world. But there is comfort in knowing that others suffer from the same darkness. So I am revealing my darkness to the world.
