Lonely father // S.M. ( Completed)

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It turned out to be a Mendes baby . I'm gonna have a daughter . And I'm mostly happy because I don't have to be afraid that I was wrong again. I will have a daughter . To tell her stories , watch her out , watch her grow up , learn her how to play the guitar , secude her into the music's world , give her valuable information about hee life . Especially , hearing that word rolling off her lips and reach my ear . 'dad' . I'm gonna be a dad in less than 1 month.

Lydia isn't really happy that we are gonna have a daughter . Not because of the baby's gender , but because we are gonna have a baby in general

"Did you tell your parents?" She asks as she takes a bite from her dinner

"Yeah" I answer honestly

"When?"

"From the first minute . I didn't keep anything secret from them"

"What did they say about it?"

"To get rid of the baby , and then break up" I say leaving my spoon and fork down

" Then why don't we do that ? We won't end up good and you know it . Do you want the baby to be miserable? Everyone tells you that this wrong. But no , you are to busy to think about what I want" Lydia yells pushing her plate on the floor

"The only thing you want Is to get rid of the baby and me so you can go to Alex . You can give birth to the baby and then do whatever you want . I don't care . I care about what is inside you and you are treating it like a rubbish" I yell getting up from my chair

"Even if I give birth to the baby , how will you provide everything that the baby needs?"

"I have been working day and night . I have enough to say that u don't need help from other people. I just need you to give birth of the baby and not throw it to the garbage bag"

" Oh so I'm only a toy for you" she says , laughing sarcastically

"What? I never said that bur from the moment you are gonna give birth to my child , you also have a responsibility . But I have the biggest here"

"I'm sick of you" she says , getting up from her chair and walking to her room

"It's just a month . 8 months now you have been complaining for our child. What kind of a mother are you ? That hates her own child?" I yell , as I stand outside the door

"I never wanted this fucking thing . I just wanna get out of here , without tge baby" she yells and I step back , not believing the words that rolled from her lips to my ears

" I want it though. And because you can't take care of It, it doesn't mean I can't . You must start thinking everything that happens to you . And not yourself" I yell as I walk to the living room

"You think you will be big from your music while you a dickhead with many hopes . Not even your mom doesn't like your voice"

"My mom always admires the kids and she likes my voice . It's not everyone like your parents" I yell and she doesn't respond

I can't understand why this baby is like the key to her sadness . Babies are supposed to bring happiness , but arguments and tears

She has been trying to change my mind all this months . And my parents . Ans Kayla with kelly. And Ed with Nash . To sum up , I'm the only one who believes this baby deserves something better

I lay down on the couch and think if the future . I can't think of anything. Call me a fool , but I'm afraid of the future . I have always been.  I don't know how we will end up , what will happen with the baby , nothing

I just can't wait to keep her on my chest and sing her songs that I wrote for her . Like ' a little too much ' , 'the weight ', 'life of the party' ans many more

This kid , will be my inspiration

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