Lonely father // S.M. ( Completed)

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I open the book with my hands shaking. My heart is also shaking. I don't know what I will face reading this. And I know that its something bad since mom doesn't want Aaliyah to read it.

"Read it or just live without reading it? " I ask myself and I see Ela,  placing a hand on the book "I didn't ask you" I tell her laughing.

Even though, I decide to read the boom. I turn the white in the beginning and take a first look at the page. No pictures. I never liked books that didn't contain pictures. And I hate this one even more

"I can't avoid it for forever" I tell, taking a deep breath and start reading the book

'All my life, I wanted to do whatever I could. And I did it. I made my two kids happy. I gave them all I could. I married the woman everyone said that she didn't like me. My life was just find. I wouldn't change a thing'

"This is good. Its not saying anything that would be different from what Aaliyah and I know" I say, turn the page

'I remember when Shawn started playing guitar. I bought him the guitar. He was so happy when he first took it in his hands . I know he will be a big artist. But then he will throw it all to waste. Because of my death. Nothing will change his mind. I don't blame him. Although he could be recognised from everyone, he won't accept it because of me. I just wish that he has another offer to accept it'

"Death ? Career? How.. How.. How can he know all this? I mean, about his death, about me quitting my career.. It's like.. I'm watching 13rw." I say out loud and Ela just looks at me as I'm losing my mind

'I can't believe I will leave my angels behind me. Shawn will be strong. I know he will. But I don't know about Aaliyah. She is so fragile, even if she wants to show people that she is so strong. But when things will get hard, she will lose her focus. I'm so sorry that I will do this to her'

"Do what? He didn't do anything. Right? He was killed. Right? " I ask myself, running a hand through my messy hair

'I know Karen will be the wall. She will not break down. She knows how much I love her. and I don't how much Shawn and Aaliyah Love me. I don't need to hear it. I never wanted to here it. I knew it. '

"How could he know it? I mean.. I barely ever told him how much I love and appreciate him"

'So many things have been running around my head. And especially my lungs. They won't last for long. The doctor said my lungs will give up on me, any time soon. There's no cure. The only cure is to stop breathing'

"Dad had cancer" I say between my tears. I can't believe it

'I can't wait for death. I can't see my beloved people waiting to see if I'm dead or not. The doctor said that there's a place where to-die people go and ask for one thing. I went there a few days ago. It's a matter of time'

Dad paid someone to kill him? No. I can you believe this. I take Ela in my arms and cry in her shoulder, as she cries in my chest. I get out of the room with Ela and the book with me see mom outside my door. She takes it and runs outside where the barbecue is on. She torns the book and throws it there

"Why? " I ask her,  wiping away my tears

"Because I don't want Aaliyah to learn this. she already knows about the cancer and that he told someone to kill him. I don't know from who. I just don't want this thing in my house" My mom says and I take her in my hug,  along with Ela

"We are together" I tell her.  After what just happened, I need some time alone. With Ela.

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