Lonely father // S.M. ( Completed)

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Dad is gone . I still can't believe it . The man who showed me how to love life ,it's in that coffin,lifeless. Everyone passes by and says how sorry their for our lost. It's not about the sympathy ,but about how many things are lost with dad...

Nash and Ed are as sad as me. Dad was like their second dad. Especially for Nash who's dad left him when he was 5. They refuse to believe it

Mom is sitting on the chair in front of the coffin, looking at the closed coffin and mumbling something that I can't understand

Aaliyah is a broken wall. She used to be strong but now , she is as weak as a feather on the edge of a mountain

"I miss him" Aaliyah says , resting her head on my shoulder and telling the tears roll down her eyes and find shelter on my shirt

"I know Aaliyah. I miss him too" I say and I hug her tight with my left arm and hold Ela with my right one. She has been quite are day. Possibly, she understands that I don't have the power to calm her down if she cries

Also, I shut down all my social media and told Z magazine to stop printing the edition I was in. I don't want to be famous , rich , recognizable , an icon for everyone if I don't have my icon next to me. Dad. I don't want to be the center of attention anymore. I just want to raise my daughter properly and out of the spotlights.  First Lydia , now dad. I just have to keep Ela near me

The four black dressed men carry dad's coffin to his last residence. I gave Ela to Kayla and Kelly. They can't take to see dad like that for the last time , so they will skip that. And I don't want Ela seeing her grandpa like that for the last time.

Everyone starts throwing flowers and then they cover the coffin with solid. And now it's time for the last words. Nash is first.

"I don't know how to say this. I will miss you Manny. I considered you as my dad. How can you leave us hanging like this? You will never be forget. I love you" Nash says , touch his grave and then going back his seat , wiping away his tears

"You learned me how to play football,how to built confidence. Now , how to be strong. You are a great man Manny. You still are. I miss you " Ed says , looking down

Aaliyah seems scared but even so , she goes to dad's grave

"Hey dad. It's me. Your Liah princess. I hope you see grandma up there. Tell her that I love her. And I love you too. I don't know what I'm gonna do without you. I should have said that I love you more times but I just couldn't. Why?" Aaliyah says crying and Nash helps her get back to my seat

"Manny... I can't wait to get next to you. I don't care if it will be tomorrow or in 10 years. I want to be near you. I can't calm down myself. How can I calm down two kids and a granddaughter? Oh Manny. So many things with we had in common. Will you still love me?" My mom says to the grave , leaving a kiss next to his photo

Now ,it's time for me. It's very painful. How can I... I can't...

"Dad...I don't want fame. I want you. I want my daughter to grow up with her grandpa. You tell her stories about me and learn her things. To nag at me that you are you kinder than me. I will find the person who killed you and make them regret. I don't care if I won't be the star I want. I want you more now. I miss you" I say , looking one last time at the grave before I help mom and Aaliyah get in the car

I picked up Ela previously from Kelly and Kayla. Although,I don't know how beneficial it will be for her to be near 3 crying people

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I cried. A lot .