Lonely father // S.M. ( Completed)

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Lydia is 4 months old . We haven't talked about the baby recently. She tries to be away from that conversation . She just goes out for walks all the time , when I'm not at work or studying , and that leaves me little time to speak to her . She has been trying to avoid me at no cost .

I'm studying for a test right now , and it's even harder to study when you are tired from work and the baby is the only thing you can think of

"I'm going out" Lydia says and before i could say a word , the door goes closed , and the voice it makes when it closes makes me go crazy

I push the books from my desk to the floor and rapidly get up , grab my jacket and run after her . I put the jacket on before leaving the building and seeing her walk down the road

I follow her , making sure she doesn't see me. She looks multiple times behind her but I'm certain not once she noticed me . She walks across the road and I follow her , between the hundreds of people passing by me at the crowned streets of New York

She stops for a second , to look at her phone and then continue walking again , towards a park I had never noticed again. It must be abandoned

"Sorry" a say to stranger as I fall into him and then continue walking ,not losing Lydia from my eyes

I really need to talk to her about the baby today. If I don't do it today , I will never do it . And I know myself good.

She enters the abandoned park and then takes off her earphones

I stand outside the park and I have one idea , what type of park this is

"Sorry but do you know the Park's name?" I ask a passer by and he gently nods at me

"Yeah it's the lover's park. You know . For those who need some space to do their things. " He says smirking and then going away , fading through the crowned streets

To do their things , so what the fuck does Lydia want here? She is pregnant with my child. she has no business here , right?

I enter the park and at first I don't see anything unusual. Trees , benches , birds , more trees and couples doing their own things . Yeah , now I know why this park is out of the map

I continue walking down the path I saw Lydia walk , hoping I will find her , sitting alone and now making out with some random dude

And to my surprise , she is not . A side has this hand between her legs and she just enjoys it . Yeah ,like she is not expecting my child or even dating me

"No she can't be " I mumble under my breath , but she is

What if the baby isn't mine ? What if the child is that dude's who is fingering her? What if she has been cheating me for more than 4 months?

I kick the tree which is next to me and then run home , not taking out of my mind what I just saw . Lydia with another man .

When I get home , I sit down , and think of what I can do

Kick her our? No , cause there is a possibility that she will give birth to my child , and until then I can't risk it

Ask for a good explanation? That also consists of lies and tears

Just don't mention it? Then , she I'll continue doing the same until I find the balls to tell her that

"Hey" Lydia says as she enters the house "is something wrong?" She asks me , taking off her coat and shoes

"No" I lie and she nods

"I'm gonna take a shower" she says , getting to the bathroom and I feel betrayed as I see her closing the bathroom's door

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