Lonely father // S.M. ( Completed)

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"Thanks mom" I say through the phone to my mom

"Just remember to rub her back when you are done feeding her . Don't you want me to come over and help you ?"

"No mom . I'm fine . It's just the first night. I will get used to it" I say , while shaking Manuela's milk

"Whatever you say , I'm will come over tomorrow" she says

"Okay okay. I will have to be prepared for a general check up. See you "

"Love you" she says as I end the call , and go to my room , in which Ed and Nash made space for Manuela

I pick her up and place the Battle's nipple between her little lips , and watch as she drinks the milk

"It would be better if Lydia was here , but we will make it right?" I ask her , not waiting for a response

After a few minutes , she is done with her milk , so I put her head on my shoulder , with a towel between my shoulder and her head and I start rubbing her back

A small sound escapes her lips , so I let her down on her bed 

"Will you to sleep on your own , or should I spend the whole night trying to put you asleep , just to sleep in the morning?" I ask her with a laugh and she starts crying . I pick her up and place her on my chest and start doing the characteristic 'shhh' that mom told me to do if she starts crying

"Cmom don't cry . I love you. Don't be such a girl" I say again , only making her to cry even more

"Shhhh. I'm a bad person . Please don't cry " I say again but she won't listen to me

"She would not show that she is afraid , but being and feeling alone was too much to face . Though , everyone said that she was so strong , they didn't know that she could barely carry on . But she knew that she would be okay . So she didn't let it get in her way . Sometimes it all gets a little too much , but you gotta realise that the fog will soon clear up " I sing her and I see her slowly calming down

After singing about 5 times the same song , she finally stopped crying , and just relaxed on my chest , while I am laying on the bed

"You like the songs , don't you?" I ask her , and she just poops . Okay , I don't know if she is trying to say something , but this is very difficult for me

I pick her up from my chest , and Kay her in the ' changing table ' as I calm it

I unzip the body suit and unclip her diaper and then throw it away.

"You don't know , how uncomfortable this is. Please don't start crying" I say as I clear her areas. And it really is uncomfortable

I talk her , and then put her a new diaper and zip her body suit again

" Am I awesome or not ?" I say , being a diva , before getting into the dad role again

For the next 4 hours , I sing to her , make her stop crying , change her diapers and feed . Then now , I can officially say that I managed to put her asleep. And she seems so calmed when she sleeps. When she stops crying in the baby phase , she will start crying for boys . I will make sure she won't cry for any dump ass boy

I lay to my bed , looking at the clock to see tbat it's 5 am . Now , I can sleep for a few hours , before getting back to the dad role

A car that runs the street , with the music's volume at the end , playing a Martin Garrix's DJ set . The sound is so loud that it could even wake up dead people. Martin is a great DJ but not at 5 am and when a new born is sleeping

And Manuela's cry , echoes the room . I will find the dude that woke up Manuela and make him eat his diaper

"Fuck" I yell , as I get up , picking up Manuela and doing the same again . Feeding her , changing her , sing to her and put her in sleep at 6:30 am

And it 3 hours my mom will come. I hope Manuela won't wake up again

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56 in fanfiction. IM CRYING 😭😭😭💯