it's p robabaly the latest I've been up since I started school 10 weeks ago,
and you've been on my mind all day.
sneaking into my dreams last night knew a reminded of the way we kissed, your sounds, your touch. only to wake up and remember we havent been a thing for almost a year. in my dream you said you had a boyfriend, and still kissed me which was odd
but we kissed
and I woke up in a jolt
and laughed at the notion of you having a boyfriend, and felt stupid for ever thinking we'd kiss again.
it's a coping mechanism for sure
to tell yourself you weren't what your exes wanted
and it hurts when you compare you to their new loves,
but even in a perfect world I'm not her. or whoever you end up marrying.
I had you darting in and out of my mind
while I admited to myself that I like someone after being so cautious not to fall, and my Pinterest level of girlfriending and how I want to do that, but he doesn't want it, at least not now.
the point is I have so much on my mind and not a soul up to help me through it
YOU ARE READING
The future has already past
ŞiirWhile my mind urges me to write something more than I think I can be myself, I sit in my bed the light dimmed and music playing in the background trying to figure out why It's in this book that I will write more. I'm not even sure it matters. I'm...
