When Jaida Met Kadeem

10

Chapter Seventeen;

For days Bri's words played in my head. I couldn't even enjoy myself, Rex came over with a couple of mans from his college. I gave him a hug and he instantly asked me what was wrong. 

"Nothing," I said, and then attempted to smile. 

He gave me a knowing look. "Jaida La'Shanay Harris, who do you think you're talking to here?" he asked in some next gay voice, I looked at him and started creasing. 

"I'm fine, it's probably my period or something." I replied, Rex's face changed into a look of disgust, I laughed some more, he always knew how to make me feel better. 

Are me and Bri talking? I don't even know what's going on, it's like if there's a group discussion going on we would talk to each other but it's not like we're friends really, we just want to make people feel comfortable around us. 

It's now two weeks since Bri's Shane speech. I stayed up all night thinking about it like I've been doing the previous night, Shane has his arms wrapped tightly round my waist and was breathing in and out, his head buried into my shoulder, sometimes I would cry, not cry actually, tears would just be streaming down my face as I thought about it and other days I would convince myself she's chatting sh*t. 

"I love you, you know that?" Shane grumbled into my ear, he's been really sweet to me lately. I smiled even though he couldn't see me, I had my back to him and I was lying in bed staring into space. "I love you too." I whispered. He started kissing on my neck and I closed my eyes, it didn't even feel nice for me, my body was going on stiff. Shane noticed and told me to sit up. 

"Shane, I'm tired." I moaned. 

"Just sit up man," he told me. 

"Shane, I want to sleep." I tried telling him again. 

"I want you to sit up, and you're going to do it." he said. 

"For f*ck sake Shane it's two in the morning, I'm tired, I ain't in the mood for s*x!" I shouted. 

"Don't f*cking raise your voice at me, how many times do I have to tell you?" he shouted back. "I just wanted to give you a massage you ungrateful b*tch!" he got out of bed. 

"Where are you going?" I demanded to know. 

"Don't ask questions." He told me. "I thought you wanted to go to sleep?" he screwed me and flicked on the light switch, I squinted. "I can't sleep with the light on." I whined. 

"Shut the f*ck up." He told me as he started getting dressed. 

I sat up on the bed, "Don't talk to me like that -"he came over to me and grabbed me by my throat, I gasped in shock as he banged my head against the headboard. "I can talk to you how I want, are you forgetting who I am?" he looked me in the eyes. There were tears spilling down my face I couldn't breathe, he let go and I gulped in all the oxygen I could and breathed it back out heavily, touching my throat gently, unable to get over what he did. 

When he was dressed he stormed out of the room, flicking off the light. I got out of bed and ran after him, "Shane!" I shouted, "Come back, where are you going?" I demanded to know. He turned back to look at me before walking out the front door. I opened it and ran down the stairs after him, he walked towards me and slapped me hard across my cheek, I screamed. "Go back to bed and mind your own business." He told me before stepping out into the night through the main entrance door, people started opening the front doors cussing me and reminding me it was two in the morning. Rosa opened her door and saw me, "Jaida..." she said, "Come here." She out stretched her arms and I walked into them crying on her shoulders, ignoring the neighbours cussing about me and Shane like I wasn't even there.