When Jaida Met Kadeem

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When Jaida Met Kadeem - Part Nine.

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Two years and a few months later... 

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Introduction to the Changes;

It's funny how things change, scary sometimes. You are so sure that you will always remain a certain way with a person but one little thing can change everything. Sometimes the people change, it's not their fault but a new environment, new people can make them into a different person the person you never thought they would be, a person you never knew them to be before and when shit like that happens you lose friends who were so close to you they became family. That little thing that effected what I thought was an unbreakable bond was Shane. After that day I had s*x with him for the first time and we started dealing again I lost my closest friend, my sister, Bri. She didn't cuss me or anything like that...at first. It's just whenever I try talk to her it was like I was talking to a wall, she didn't want to be around me anymore, I didn't know what to do so I tried to confront to her then she shouted at me said I was confused, how the f*ck could I be dealing with that prick and be 'in love' with Kadeem? I told her to just let what happened at my party go, one thing led to another and we stopped talking. If we saw each other it was as if we didn't, I couldn't be bothered to apologise so I left her init. Me and Shane were together and I couldn't leave him, I felt like I had to stay with him, no-one was happy about the relationship, my auntie told me to be careful, whenever he came to the yard she would go all quiet, Ramal despised him and even little Keisha ran away from him, the only one that was cool about him was my Uncle Omari who came back from America a few weeks after we started going out again. I didn't understand I didn't want to understand why everyone was against him. When I was with Shane I felt happy, he made me forget about what I felt for Kadeem and I know this may sound weird but I felt like when I was around Shane I couldn't think about Kadeem anyway because he could read my mind or something...I don't know. As for Kadeem, we don't speak really, him and Shane are tight now and when I'm around him it's just a 'hi and bye' ting, no more tension, no more tears...no more love. I was young and it was just the past. 

Shane came back and like that everything changed.

"Where the f*ck have you been?" I shouted as soon as Shane walked through the door, a couple of mans came in too, Malachi, Romeo, Damien - yeah that Damien, and Marquez. 

Shane just chuckled and walked up to me giving me a tight hug, "I'm sorry baby," he grumbled into my neck. "I had to take care of some business init." I lifted his head up and looked at him. 

"What kind of business?" I demanded to know. "Shane, you told me you stopped this bullsh*t. What's wrong with you?" I pushed him. "When you get caught out..." 

"Who puts food on the table? Money to buy your clothes? Don't f*cking raise your voice at me like you can go out and make alla this!" he grinned, taking bare notes out from his pocket and waving them around in my face. I snatched a couple out of his hand. "I need to go charge the Gas." I explained and walked past his boys who looked me up and down and licked their lips. 

Dogs. Noticed any changes yet? 

This is my life now, my struggle with my man. Sometimes it's just me struggling on my own, Shane leaves me sometimes staying out all night not coming back until the afternoon the next day, like now. It p*sses me off it really does, but I can't leave.

I walked into our room and slammed the door shut before leaning against it and closing my eyes. A tear trickled down my cheek; maybe if he stayed in school he wouldn't have to be doing all of this sh*t, I know he's out on road shotting, robbing houses and people...nothing's changed though he claimed he has kmt. I stopped complaining when he started giving me money and I would go out and come back with bare designer labels, we dressed a little nicer, our flat looked more attractive and I didn't have to worry about rent because Shane got all of that sorted...but his money is dirty, illegal and I know it's not right. He knew all the shit he bought me would shut me up and I really wouldn't complain about it, "I'm doing this all for you baby," he would repeat to me. He was sensible, he saved it but still...it's not right. He's changed me before I wouldn't have taken this sh*t, would've walked out the door long time ago but I can't do that no-more and I don't know why. I slipped in to some short black boots and threw my black leather bomber jacket over my shoulders before taking ten pounds out of the money he gave me, getting the Gas card and walking out of the flat. I went downstairs and saw Rosa coming out her front door with a black garbage bag; she smiled when she saw me. "Hello Jaida, you look stressed. Are you alright my darling?" she asked. I love Rosa, she's this Cyprian woman who lives below me, she's in her early twenties, like twenty-one or twenty-two and she's bare pretty with black hair cut really short with blonde streaks. I never really used to pay attention to her until one time me and Shane had some big argument and I ran out the flat down the stairs crying and she was walking into her hers after some party or something as she was all dressed up, she asked me to come in and gave me a cup of tea and we started talking.