When Jaida Met Kadeem

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Chapter Fifty;

I couldn't even get mad, there was nothing I could do or say because I had brought this on myself. And it's true what they say, nothing ever stays secret forever. Olivia glanced over at me triumphantly the only word I can think of to describe the look on her face is satisfaction. She wasn't even done speaking, she had opened her mouth to say more but Ramal had cut in, he was furious, telling her to leave as she was ruining the party for everyone. My Auntie Donna and Auntie Madeline looked disgusted, I stood still for a moment, paralysed with shock because I still couldn't believe that had happened, I still couldn't get over how she was aware of all the things she had done had made her look bad in the eyes of most of the people in my house and deciding to bring up my past and drag me down with her. I was in a daze but was quickly brought back to reality when I saw Krystal making her way to the front door avoiding eye-contact with anyone, my legs automatically followed her.

"Krystal..." I began in a feeble voice when I had caught up with her at this point she was walking out of the front door which had been left open from when Jamal and Curtis had stormed out a few moments earlier. "I..."

"Shut up Jaida," Krystal snapped at me in a surprisingly sharp voice I have never heard her use. "I never knew you were like that," she said, shaking her head at me looking disappointed. "True say it was a long time ago so I don't see the point of getting really emotional and shouting at you," she said. "But it's good to know how much our friendship at the time meant to you," she added sarcastically. "That you would choose Kadeem's s*x over our friendship, wow you must really like d*ck," she said.

"It was only once," I argued back weakly.

"And that makes it alright?!" she shouted back in disbelief of what I had said.

"No..." I struggled. "But - "

"Stop pretending to be sorry - " she began to say but stopped abruptly staring hard into space, I turned around briefly to catch what she was staring at, we both watched as Kadeem made his way towards us his facial expression was kept coolly calm. His exhaled deeply as his eyes focused on Krystal's whose face had hardened an expression I never knew she was capable of making, Krystal never screwed, never got angry...it just wasn't her, so to see her like this, her eyes narrowed and her lips clamped together in a straight line was kind of scary. No lie.

"Krystal..." he began but was caught off-guard by her hand flashing out of no-where and striking him hard across his cheek.

"I can't believe I let you take my virginity," she said through gritted teeth. "I'm glad I f*cked Donnell in the end." She added bitterly before turning away from him in disgust so I wasn't as shocked when she hit me next and really hard too causing my head to whip itself to the right which was the direction she had slapped me.

"And that's for Curtis," she hissed at me. "For being nothing but good to you and you taking him for a pr*ck, you two make me sick and don't even suit." And with that she strutted off. I touched my cheek lightly, it stung and felt hot, tears pricked my eyes, which was a result from being hit so hard and the intense feeling of guilt that I haven't felt since I was fifteen wash over me.

Just then a car pulled up outside the house and I heard my Auntie Donna's voice and Olivia's voice saying something in the background but I was too distracted to focus. I felt someone lightly touch my arm, I didn't even have to look up to know who it was, I could smell him. I lightly shrugged off his hand, "Don't touch me." I whispered, the tears that were filling up in my eyes were now freely flowing down my cheeks as I stared blankly into space, the cold wind blowing against my bare arms causing the hairs on my arms to raise, I had Goosebumps I was shaking but my feet were rooted to the ground. I thought of Curtis, Jamal and Krystal...I thought of the way Krystal looked at me and what she had said about Curtis, I of thought about all the people inside my house who had witness Olivia's speech and how they must view me to be, all the adults must think I'm some kind of hoe, I swear down. I was so embarrassed, so upset, angry, and confused.